… Cue "The Architect" (My ORIGINAL head-doctor = "The Architect")

…

"Humph. Hope, it is the quintessential human delusion, simultaneously the source of your greatest strength, and your greatest weakness."



(… OBVIOUSLY, ye is NOT "The Architect" of MY--an 

OPTIMIST's--brain & heart.)


ME: "WHY am I here?" 

The Architect: "Your life is the sum of a remainder of an 

unbalanced equation inherent to the programming of

(MODERN neural-studies). You are the eventuality of an 

anomaly, which despite my sincerest efforts I have been 

unable to eliminate from what is otherwise a harmony of 

mathematical precision. While it remains a burden 

assiduously avoided, it is not unexpected, 

and thus not beyond a measure of control … which has led 

you, inexorably, here."


...
The Architect: …"Which brings us at last to the moment of 

truth, wherein the fundamental flaw is ultimately expressed, 

and 'the Anomaly' (ME) revealed as both beginning... and 

end." 


(--'The Matrix Reloaded')


ME: "Aaahhh, Doc.  CLEVER metaphor relating 

'BEGINNING' and--EVENTUAL--'END' to my … 

TEMPORARY … disability!

...