A.J.'s OWN/PARTICULAR/DISTINCTIVE "'Vision-Quest'":

-- MY-being a HARD-WORKING, DETERMINED ex-WRESTLER who "POSSESSES" this UN-popular & MUCH-"shrugged-OFF" "DREAM" makes MY-"DRAMATIC interpretation" of the film 'Vision Quest' ... APPROPRIATE.  
... PLUS, the FACT that I ... "FELL-for" ... an oldER woman--METAPHORICALLY/ROMANTICALLY--FURTHER-appropriates THIS film-CHOICE.


-- So, I "got-to THINKIN'": 
A-LOT of what I DO is ... NOT "IL-legal", just ... "FROWNED-upon" by the "'SQUARE'-community".  NONETHELESS/REGARDLESS, "there IS a METHOD to MY 'MADNESS'".  THUS, I SEEK a ... "THUGGED-out 'HEAVEN'":


"Gangsta's Paradise"
(by Coolio)

"As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I take a look at my life and realize there's nothin' left
'Cause I've been blasting and laughing so long,
That even my mama thinks that my mind is gone
But I ain't never crossed a man that didn't deserve it
Me be treated like a punk you know that's unheard of
You better watch how you're talking and where you're walking
Or you and your homies might be lined in chalk
I really hate to trip but I gotta loc
As they croak, I see myself in the pistol smoke, fool
I'm the kinda G the little homies wanna be like
On my knees in the night saying prayers in the streetlight

Been spending most their lives, living in the gangsta's paradise
Been spending most their lives, living in the gangsta's paradise
Keep spending most our lives, living in the gangsta's paradise
Keep spending most our lives, living in the gangsta's paradise

Look at the situation they got me facin'
I can't live a normal life, I was raised by the streets
So I gotta be down with the hood team
Too much television watching got me chasing dreams
I'm an educated fool with money on my mind
Got my 10 in my hand and a gleam in my eye
I'm a loc'd out gangsta set trippin' banger
And my homies is down so don't arouse my anger, fool
Death ain't nothing but a heartbeat away,
I'm living life, do or die, what can I say
I'm 23 now, but will I live to see 24
The way things are going I don't know

Tell me why are we so blind to see
That the ones we hurt are you and me

Been spending most their lives, living in the gangsta's paradise
Been spending most their lives, living in the gangsta's paradise
Keep spending most our lives, living in the gangsta's paradise
Keep spending most our lives, living in the gangsta's paradise

Power and the money, money and the power
Minute after minute, hour after hour
Everybody's running, but half of them ain't looking
What's going on in the kitchen, but I don't know what's cookin'
They say I gotta learn, but nobody's here to teach me
If they can't understand it, how can they reach me
I guess they can't, I guess they won't
I guess they front, that's why I know my life is out of luck, fool

Been spending most their lives, living in the gangsta's paradise
Been spending most their lives, living in the gangsta's paradise
Keep spending most our lives, living in the gangsta's paradise
Keep spending most our lives, living in the gangsta's paradise

Tell me why are we so blind to see
That the ones we hurt are you and me
Tell me why are we so blind to see
That the ones we hurt are you and me"
[Fade out]

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-- Of COURSE, THIS song was ALREADY-parodied .... by the LEGENDARY "Weird Al Yankovic" ... in HIS 'Amish Paradise'.  

(... So, I "tinkered-WITH" BOTH.)

'AMISH Paradise'
"As I walk through the valley where I harvest my grain
I take a look at my wife and realize she's very plain
But that's just perfect for an Amish like me
You know, I shun fancy things like electricity
At 4:30 in the morning I'm milkin' cows
Jebediah feeds the chickens and Jacob plows... fool
And I've been milkin' and plowin' so long that
Even Ezekiel thinks that my mind is gone
I'm a man of the land, I'm into discipline
Got a Bible in my hand and a beard on my chin
But if I finish all of my chores and you finish thine
Then tonight we're gonna party like it's 1699

We been spending most our lives
Living in an Amish paradise
I've churned butter once or twice
Living in an Amish paradise
It's hard work and sacrifice
Living in an Amish paradise
We sell quilts at discount price
Living in an Amish paradise

A local boy kicked me in the butt last week
I just smiled at him and turned the other cheek
I really don't care, in fact I wish him well
'Cause I'll be laughing my head off when he's burning in hell
But I ain't never punched a tourist even if he deserved it
An Amish with a 'tude? You know that's unheard of
I never wear buttons but I got a cool hat
And my homies agree, I really look good in black...fool
If you come to visit, you'll be bored to tears
We haven't even paid the phone bill in 300 years
But we ain't really quaint, so please don't point and stare
We're just technologically impaired

There's no phone, no lights, no motorcar
Not a single luxury
Like Robinson Crusoe
It's as primitive as can be

We been spending most our lives
Living in an Amish paradise
We're just plain and simple guys
Living in an Amish paradise
There's no time for sin and vice
Living in an Amish paradise
We don't fight, we all play nice
Living in an Amish paradise

Hitchin' up the buggy, churnin' lots of butter
Raised a barn on Monday, soon I'll raise another
Think you're really righteous? Think you're pure in heart?
Well, I know I'm a million times as humble as thou art
I'm the pious guy the little Amlettes wanna be like
On my knees day and night scorin' points for the afterlife
So don't be vain and don't be whiny
Or else, my brother, I might have to get medieval on your heinie

We been spending most our lives
Living in an Amish paradise
We're all crazy Mennonites
Living in an Amish paradise
There's no cops or traffic lights
Living in an Amish paradise
But you'd probably think it bites
Living in an Amish paradise"
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-- MY version/rendition, entitled 

''Weirdo's End-LESS Quest'':

"As I drive my 'CHAIR' down the street to CLASS, 
I take a look at my shoulder-scar & realize I'm just like GLASS.
But, THAT's just-PERFECT for SEN-SIH-tih-vih-TEE.
'Tis NOT that I'm MEAN.  I just LACK hem-PAH-THEE.
By six o'clock in the morning, I'm ex-er-SIZE-in'.
By the END of my 'TESTS', my HIPS'll be RIZE-in'.  FOOL!
But, I've been STANDIN' & SITTIN' so much THAT
Even my brother in Turkey can 'SEE' when I TIRE!
I'm ob-SESSED with NUMBERS.  I rih-LATE 'em to ALL
With-OUT ANY fear of a MISTAKE's causing a BRAWL!
But, MATH's so-TOUGH.  So, how can I be so-SURE?!
... Well, the numbers are 'SOUND', & my LOGIC is PURE!

I've been spendin' WAY too-LONG, 
''Workin''-ON my 'end-LESS QUEST'!
I 'GUESS & CHECK' FREE-QUENT-LEE!
''Workin''-ON my 'end-LESS QUEST'!
I can get NO EM-PAH-THEE!
''Workin''-ON my 'end-LESS QUEST'!
GREAT prah-gress my guests will-SEE!
''Workin''-ON my 'end-LESS QUEST'!

I STARTED-to STAND ... but fell-back.  So, what.  I TRIED.
I just SHUT my eyes, POSTULATED an ALTERNATIVE & SIGHED.
I shaN'T just-QUIT.  In FACT, I'm doin' WELL! 
... I USED-to DESPERATELY search-FOR one with LEGS to SELL.
But, I'll NEVER give-UP, even IF 'odds Of SUCCESS' seem BLEAK. 
But, provin' doubters WRONG is 'just what I DO.
WALKIN' with a 'T.B.I.'?!  THAT's just UNHEARD-OF!
I NEVER say 'never', so gimme a CHANCE.
My homies ALL agree, ... I should patent a dance.  FOOL!
If y'ALL watch my 'WALK', you'll deafen me with 'WOW's!
My SLIGHT-grunts--while 'WALKING' are CALMING ... like a cat's 'me-OW's.
I'm DEFINITELY-NOT 'dumb', so please doN'T point & STARE.
I'm JUST 'verbally-IMPAIRED'.

My LEG-nerves have ALL been DAMAGED.
No more WAH-KING-TEK-NEEK.
Like CLUMSY-'Paul BunYAN',
I'm 'FAR-from ... SLEEK!

I've been BUSY RE-SENT-LEE,
''Workin''-ON my 'end-LESS QUEST'!
I RARELY-sleep, 'cuz I'm ALWAYS-THINKIN' AND
''Workin''-ON my 'end-LESS QUEST'!
I've no-time for RE-LAY-SHEN-SHIPS,
''Workin''-ON my 'end-LESS QUEST'!
I STRIVE-to INSPIRE other 'CRIPS',
''Workin''-ON my 'end-LESS QUEST'! 

Usin' my MOMENTUM, lengthenin' my GAIT,  
FOCUSED-on my 'pigeon-toe', soon I'll turn it STRAIGHT.
Think you're CREATIVE?  Think you're really-SMART?!
Well, I KNOW I'm seh-ven MILLION times as thou ART!
I'll be the WALKING-guy all the 'CHAIR-folk' wanna be-LIKE!
WHEN I stumble while 'WALKING', ... RELAX!  'Tis JUST a BIG-PSYCHE!
So, doN'T DOUBT me ... with PESS-ih-MISS-ISM!
I'm ALWAYS-thinkin' MATH.  Like, I see my housemate as a rectangular-PRISM.

I'd kinda-like a day-OFF ... FROM
''Workin''-ON my 'end-LESS QUEST'!
I'm JUST a WACKY MATH-MATICIAN,
''Workin''-ON my 'end-LESS QUEST'!
'For the WEARY, there IS no-REST!'
''Workin''-ON my 'end-LESS QUEST'!
I must-ALWAYS give it my-BEST!
''Workin''-ON my 'end-LESS QUEST'!"
_______________________________________________

-- "EVERYTHING CAN-be TAKEN-from a man but ONE thing: the LAST of human-FREEDOMS--to CHOOSE one's ATTITUDE in ANY given set of circumstances; to CHOOSE one's OWN-way."
(--Viktor E. Frankl)

-- DoN'T BELITTLE or DISMISS or CRITICIZE MY-DREAMS!
... "There are seven DAYS in a/the WEEK, &
'Someday' isN'T one of 'em."
(--UNKNOWN)    
... MY INFAMOUS-/NOTORIOUS-/CATASTROPHIC-accident was ... 2,821 DAYS ago.  Thus, it's been at-LEAST THAT-LONG, since I've gotten a ... "day of REST".
(... HAAARUMPF!)
... "'TOMORROW' STARTS-with 'TODAY'!"
(--Altan Kaynatma)

... "Do-NOT confuse 
'the ability to PREDICT' 
with
'the ability to CONTROL'."
(--Larry, 'NUMB3RS')
(... INITIALLY, I "PREDICTED" I'd--EVENTUALLY--"DEFEAT" my "T.B.I."  ... NOW, after MUCH "ENCOURAGING-progress", I can "CONTROL" my--EVENTUAL--"WIN"!)  


-- "You will never CHANGE your LIFE, until you CHANGE something you do DAILY.  ... The secret of your SUCCESS is found in your DAILY-routine."
(--John C. Maxwell) 

... Ergo, I STARTED (yesterday) to do 

3 SETS of 50 "CRUNCHES" every morning ... BETWEEN my FIRST "meal" & "SECOND-breakfast".

(... Fingers CROSSSED ... & LEGS ... & EYES)

-- "The ability to DISCIPLINE yourself to DELAY gratification in the SHORT-term in order to enjoy greatER-rewards in the LONG-term, is the indispensable PRErequisite for 'SUCCESS'." 
(--Brian Tracy)

... "'DISCIPLINE' is the BRIDGE between 'GOALS' & 'ACCOMPLISHMENT'."
(--Jim Rohm)


-- Last, but NOT-least, ... HAPPY EASTER!


KEY     
* = 'Tis NOT-popular to deem MYSELF a "CRIPPLE".  Ergo, KNOWING my COUNTLESS "ODD-ities", I ACCEPT the ALTERNATIVE (TWO-syllabled) "title".


_______________________________________________
-- The ABOVE-writing was MOSTLY-done, BEFORE I went-OUT to my housemate's PARENTS' house for an Easter-dinner GATHERING ... with his mom, step-dad, sister, brother-in-law & niece.

... I ATE a FEW bites of chicken. 


...

"TIME" is the ONLY "TRUE-'CONSTANT'".

... 
LIFE's TEMPORARY-as-FUCK, ... & if you're READING-this, then you were LUCKY-enough* to wake-UP to ANOTHER-day.  
... TRY-NOT to be an ... UN-grateful little-"SHIT".






P.S. "Dear MIND,
    Stop THINKING so-MUCH at NIGHT.  ... I NEED-to SLEEP."
(--Charlie Brown)




KEY  
* = Since you make YOUR-OWN "luck", you MUST'VE applied some EXEMPLARY-physics & LOGICAL-probability to "TILT the 'odds-of-SUCCESS' in YOUR-FAVOR".
WAY-to-GO!


...

"PUT-ON a HAPPY-face!"

... 
-- (I'm NOT religious.  Ergo, ...)
To Hell with "GOOD-Friday".
Yesterday was ... GREAT!

... Aside from the NUMEROUS "articles" of GOOD-news I read, my MAIN-Nurse WAS "REAL with me" about my PHYSICAL-health:
"[I] caN'T go-BACK 'on the mat' to practice jiujitsu, ... 'cuz [I] MIGHT SEVERELY-injure my AILING-(LEFT-) hip.  Then, [my] doctor would HAFTA 'perform Hip-REPLACEMENT surgery'."
So, I'm DEBATING-about WHETHER-to "SWALLOW my PRIDE", "take-it-EASY" & JUST-VIEW 'Sempais' DEMONSTRATE MY "work".
OR, 
do I SECRETLY-"act-OUT" MY techniques, ... being MINDFUL & CAREFUL of "my CORE"?!
... SSSHHH!

...

RELUCTANTLY, I'm "leaning-TOWARD" the "PRIDE-swallowing".
HAAARUMPF!


-- This morning I HAD-to use my LAWN-MOWER to TRIM my  GOATEE'. 

-- My housemate has-to SLOW-down, .... so

SOUND can CATCH-up.

(... Ya see, I've ALWAYS-VALUED "PRECISION" OVER "SPEED"--ESPECIALLY on Calculus-tests ... as HE will attest-to.  GENERALLY, being "PRECISE" refers to one's ability to "REPEAT the SAME-outcome for/of a GIVEN-test".  Being "ACCURATE" refers to one's ability to "generate a RESULT CLOSE-to the documented-/ACTUAL-result".
... IDEALLY, I/y'ALL would LIKE-to COMBINE the TWO-results to "get the BEST of BOTH-worlds".
... Ergo, I PREFER being "CONSISTENTLY-ACCURATE" over "TIME-EFFICIENT".)

-- Some RIDDLES: (ANSWERS at the END)
1) What has to be broken before it can be used? 
2) What has MANY keys, but can't even open a SINGLE door?
3) What has HOLES but still HOLDS-water?
4) What invention lets you look-THROUGH walls?
5) What has A tongue, can-NOT walk, but gets around a lot?
6) MANY have HEARD me, but NOBODY has SEEN me, and I will-NOT speak until FIRST spoken-TO. What am I?

7) The person who MAKES it has no need for it. 
The person who PURCHASES it does-NOT use it. 
The person who DOES-use it does not know he or she is.

WHAT is it?

-- 'Twas an ENCOURAGING-class at Karate this morning:
GREAT student-ENTHUSIASM, A.J.-"Shout-out" from Professor, MORE FRIENDLY/WELL-behaved PARENTS!



-- As has become KINDA a "routine", I AGAIN did 2 sets of 50 crunches.  For EACH of the last-TEN reps, I SLOWLY-raised my TRUNK SLOOOWLY ... for/in ~eight seconds EACH.  Also during those LAST ~16.67%, I'd raise my LEGS, AS I crunched-UP.      

-- "To LEARN & NOT to-do' is REALLY NOT 'to LEARN'. 
'To KNOW & not to-do' is REALLY NOT 'to KNOW'."
(--Buddhist saying)

... "If you have the 'Power-to-CHANGE something that's holding you BACK, & you doN'T, then THAT's a CHOICE, ... NOT a LIMITATION."

(--Zero Dean)

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'Wonderful World'
(by Sam Cooke)

"Don't know much about history
Don't know much biology
Don't know much about a science book
Don't know much about the French I took

But I do know that I love you
And I know that if you love me, too
What a wonderful world this would be

Don't know much about geography
Don't know much trigonometry
Don't know much about algebra
Don't know what a slide rule is for

But I do know one and one is two
And if this one could be with you
What a wonderful world this would be

Now, I don't claim to be an A student
But I'm trying to be
For maybe by being an A student, baby
I can win your love for me

Don't know much about history
Don't know much biology
Don't know much about a science book
Don't know much about the French I took

But I do know that I love you
And I know that if you love me, too
What a wonderful world this would be

La ta ta ta ta ta ta (History)
Hmm-mm-mm (Biology)
La ta ta ta ta ta ta (Science book)
Hmm-mm-mm (French I took)

Yeah, but I do know that I love you
And I know that if you love me, too
What a wonderful world this would be"

______________________________________________
(... MY version, entitled,
'Miraculous-BRAIN':)
(... 'Twas INSPIRED-by my-viewing of 'Animal House' yesterday.)

"Know a LOT about CAL-KYOO-LUS.

'Tis QUITE a BIG-'PLUS'.
Know a LOT of Bi-O-fih-ZIKS.
Next is my NERVES, so y'ALL see it 'CLICKS'.

'Tis TRUE now that I need ALL my leg-NERVES.
If only my STRAIGHT 'walking-path' didN'T have so many SWERVES, 
What a MIRACULOUS-BRAIN this would-BE!

Know a LOT about JEE-ah-mih-TREE!
Know too-MUCH TRIH-gah-NAW-meh-TREE!
Know too-MUCH advanced-ALGRBRA!
Know ALL too-MUCH about SIY-ENS!

... But, I caN'T 'practice what I PREACH'.
'Cuz my 'deadened-nerves' shorten my REACH.
What a MIRACULOUS-BRAIN this would-BE!

Well, I WAS an 'A'-student, y'ALL.
I WANNA kuhn-TIN-YOO!
But, my AGAIN-being an 'A'-student, BABY,
Is really OHN-LEE for ME!

"Know a LOT about CAL-KYOO-LUS.

'Tis QUITE a BIG-'PLUS'.
Know a LOT of Bi-O-fih-ZIKS.
Next is my NERVES, so y'ALL see it 'CLICKS'.

'Tis TRUE now that I need ALL my leg-NERVES.
If only my STRAIGHT 'walking-path' didN'T have so many SWERVES, 
What a MIRACULOUS-BRAIN this would-BE!

La ta ta ta ta ta ta (Calculus)
Hmm-mm-mm (Big-plus)
La ta ta ta ta ta ta (Bi-phyics)
Hmm-mm-mm (It clicks)

Yeah, but I MUST keep-on TRYIN',
In-order-to get those 'nerve-SPARKS FLYIN'!
What a MIRACULOUS-BRAIN this would-BE!"
_______________________________________________

-- Regarding MY rehab:

"Sometimes it is the very-people who NO ONE IMAGINES anything of ...

who do the things NO ONE can IMAGINE."

(--'The Imitation Game')

((... PREMONITION/FORESHADOWING: FUTURE-point(S) go to Mr. AJ Kaynatma for SUCCESSFULLY-"defeating" HIS "Traumatic Brain-Injury".))

... "A wisER-felluh than MYSELF once said, ...
'Sometimes YOU eat the bar. ... And sometimes the BAR, ... well, it EATS YOU."
(--The Stranger, 'The Big Lebowski')

... My housemate DID invite his father over, & we-ALL enjoyed watching SAID-film.

-- "The person who NEVER made a MISTAKE ... NEVER tried anything NEW."

(--Albert Einstein)

(... "Let ye who is with-OUT SIN ... cast the FIRST-stone.")

KEY   
1) An EGG
2) A PIANO
3) A SPONGE
4) WINDOWS
5) A SHOE
(I would've ALSO accepted ... "A.J.")
6) An ECHO
7) A COFFIN


... SELF-Grading: Multiply # of CORRECT-answers by ~14.29.


...

LONG-LIVE the (ELDEST) Turkish-"STUDENT"!

... "OH, BACK-to-school.  BACK-to-SHKOOL.  
To PROVE-to (ME) I'm NOT a FOOL"
(--Billy, 'Billy Madison')


-- "Knowing-YOURSELF" is the BEGINNING of ALL-WISDOM.  

... On THAT-note, some ENLIGHTENING-words--ALL from Albert Einstein:
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-- As I am COMPLETING my degree MORE-for the-PRINCIPLE of "FINISHING what I STARTED", I like what Einstein said:
"Try not to become a man of SUCCESS, but rather try to become a man of VALUE."

-- As I experience MANY "trials & TRIBULATIONS" during my REHAB, 'tis ESSENTIAL to note Einstein's INSIGHTFUL-words:
"LEARN-from 'YESTERDAY'.  LIVE-for 'TODAY'.  HOPE-for 'TOMORROW'.  The IMPORTANT-thing is to NOT-stop questioning."

-- "The true sign of intelligence is not knowledge but imagination."

-- "We can-NOT solve our problems with the same thinking we used when we created them."
(... Ergo, I'll "LOOK-at" 'em ... with a "T.B.I."
... C'MON!  If I caN'T/doN'T JOKE-about 'em, HOW can I EXPECT-to HEAL?!)

-- "To raise new questions, new possibilities, to regard old problems from a new angle, requires creative imagination and marks real advance in science."
(... Might a "NEW angle" BE ... from a WHEELCHAIR?!)
-- "The difference between 'STUPIDITY' and 'GENIUS' is that 'GENIUS' has its limits."(... EVERY Tuesday ... MY "UPPER body"-trainer WARNS me to "KNOW [my] 'limits.'  ... Does HE recognize my BRILLIANCE, simply from my utilization of bio-PHYSICS in my exerciseS?!)
-- "Once we accept our limits, we go beyond them."
_______________________________________________
-- (WARNING) My morning BEGAN with a 
"LARGE, semi-SOLID 'Dastardly Dung-Deposit'" ... PRE-"are"Alliteration aside."  'Tis ALWAYS-comforting/-relaxing/-encouraging, when MY-body "conducts" "NORMAL"/"TYPICAL" "bodily-actions"--like GROWTH, NERVE-REGENERATION, MUSCLE-DEVELOPMENT, EXCRETION of "Bodily-WASTE"--'SANS' "medicinal-STIMULATION".  
(... I.e. "EXCRETION of ... at-LEAST 'SEMI-solid' bodily-WASTE" with-OUT pharmaceutical "bowel-STIMULANT")       


-- I've made a FEW OBSERVATIONS/HYPOTHESES about MY-"WALKING": 

... 1) When I "WALK", I TEND-to occasionally glance-DOWN at my feet.  I'm SUPPOSED-to look-UP/-STRAIGHT, ... 'cuz THAT's NATURAL.  
... Now I'm VERY-"SURE of"/"CONFIDENT-in MY-OWN "spacial-judgment".  So, WHY do I look-DOWN so OFTEN?!
'Bilmiyorum.' = 'BEEL-mee-YOHR-uhm.' 
= TURKISH for ''I doN'T know.''
... It's SUBCONSCIOUS.  ... So, I guess y'ALL COULD say 'tis PSYCHOLOGICAL.       

... 2) When I "WALK", I TEND-to step "PIGEON-toed" ... with ONLY my LEFT-foot.  EVEN my "LOWER body"'s "THINKIN'-about" PHYSICS, 'cuz a DIAGONAL/"PIGEON-toed" foot "creates" a wideR-/stableR-/"more-CEMENTED"-BASE for my STANDING.  ... AGAIN, I do NOT "'WALK' this way'**.  I just DEVELOPED this WALKING-/STEPPING-style/-technique, AFTER/SINCE my accident/injuries.

... 3) ... If I LOOK-DOWN at my LEFT-foot, as I "WALK", then I can "WILL" my LEFT-foot to NOT-curve IN-ward.        


-- How very-SURPRISING, yet ABSOLUTELY-DELIGHTFUL!  I attended a PRE-Enrollment meeting AT "Nova Southeastern University" (my grad-school) with my mom.  "LONG-story SHORT", it turns-OUT that 
I--CURRENTLY--have a 
3.82 GPA 
through 21 of a REQUIRED-39 (?)--I've gotta-CHECK that.) "Credit-hours" ... for a/my "Masters of Business Administration" in the "Huizenga School of College of Business/Entrepreneurship". 
(... BRAVO to Nova ... for maintaining my "Graduate student"-status as ... 70% COMPLETE!)
(... = 21/30 Credit-hours)


... Immediately-AFTER SAID-"meeting", my mom commented to ME: "I think THAT went VERY-well!  She (the "Disability-Advisor") seems JUST-FINE!  Right?"
I shake my head ... in DIS-agreement.
ME: "You DO know what 'FINE' stands for, doN'T you?!'Freaked-out.  Insecure.  Neurotic.  Emotional.'***  So, NO, mom.  I'd say she was very HELPFUL, UNDERSTANDING & INSIGHTFUL."****


... I told my housemate:
"I think we SHOULD get-OUT more."








P.S. "Dear MIND,
    Stop THINKING so-MUCH at NIGHT.  ... I NEED-to SLEEP."
(--Charlie Brown)





KEY  
* = BOTH my youngER brother AND my youngER are currently-IN 'Turkey', ... while my BROTHER STUDIES for his  DOCTORATE ... IN Turkish ... AND TEACHES!

** = song by Aerosmith

*** = quote from 'The Italian Job'

**** = I made-SURE to COMPLIMENT the NOVA-"Disability-Advisor" for HER being SO "INSIGHTFUL".


...

(The message in your REARview-mirror:) "Objects May Be CLOSER/LARGER Than They Appear."

... Y'all caN'T "just-LOOK at me", & see "DRIVE".
You caN'T "SEE" "DETERMINATION" or "PERSISTENCE" ... or "'KICK-ASS'-ATTITUDE".  

... You've GOTTA "read BETWEEN the lines".  

... "Those who drink-beer live LESS:
...
'LESS' STRESSED, 
'LESS' SAD,
'LESS' BITTER & 
'LESS' WORRIED."
(--Homer, 'Simpsons')

... Ergo, HOW-can I DIS-prove that "SOUND"-logic?!

... I MISS MY COLLEGE-days, ... during-which the "TRUMP-card"/"PUNISHMENT to/for ANY-argument was to

"FINISH your 'tasty-beverage'*!"** 

(... AAAHHH, CHEERS to my "fraternity-inspired, HIGHLY-SOCIAL BRILLIANCE" of "the days of YORE"!***)

... I APPLIED my ENGINEERING-CREATIVITY to DIRECT the CONSTRUCTION of the 
~10' by ~3' "A.J. Kaynatma Table of Competitive-Drinking".
... I "ESTABLISHED" NUMEROUS--probably LIFELONG--friendships via MULTIPLE--"alcohol-HEAVY"--"par-TAYS"!
... I "SECURED" my FIRST SEMI-POST/IN college JOB with an ENGINEERING-firm ... owned by the father of my girlfriend--AT THE TIME.  
((... SHE attended a NEARBY-college.  But, she FREQUENTED WELL-KNOWN 'S.A.E.' ('Sigma Alpha Epsilon') (my fraternal-organization).     


-- "LEADERSHIP" is NOT about "Titles", "Positions" or "Flowcharts".  ... 'TIS about ONE life INFLUENCING another.

... "The 'Matrix of LEADERSHIP' is EARNED ... NOT FOUND."
(--Sam, 'Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen')

... I--CURRENTLY--do NOT-HAVE a FORMAL Job-"TITLE"****.  But, I DO SET/ORGANIZE/MANAGE the "LIVES" of ... SIX-employees ... for ~12 hours per DAY.     


-- "EVERYTHING around you that you call 'LIFE' was made-up by people that were no smarter than you. And you can change it, you can influence it… Once you learn that, you'll never be the same again."
(--Steve Jobs)

... I KNOW just HOW-INTELLIGENT I AM & WAS.  ... I AM APPLYING my GENIUS to my EVERYDAY-life--CURRENTLY, as I STRIVE-to "BEGIN my life ... ANEW"!      



-- Be "OPEN" to ... WHATEVER "comes NEXT".

... I am TIRED-of this ... "DISABILITY" ... AND the IGNORANCE of society about what I CAN & CAN'T DO!  I am so, so, SSSOOOOO READY-for "the NEXT STEP"!
(... PUN IN-tended!)  


-- NICE "SPEECH-session"!  I played Scrabble (ALWAYS-FUN!), exercised my TONGUE * LIPS A LOT, practiced VERBALIZING MULTI-syllabic word-recitation in assorted-sentences & ATE two EGGS.


... IMMEDIATELY-AFTER "Speech", I watched some 'Dazed & Confused'.
(... MUCH-NEEDED LAUGHTER!)


-- ANOTHER GREAT Karate-class!
The KID-students are DEMONSTRATING their UNDERSTANDING.  ... Two NEW parents "BEFRIENDED me", as I "voiced" my TEACHING-critiques of the 'Karateka'.  ... "Professor" TOLD me--after I VERBALLY-asked--that he's WORKIN'-on CONVERTING the VHS-recording of MY "BLACK BELT"-test to a DVD ... for MY-possession.
(... YAY!) 



-- I went-to BED last night--FOOLISHLY in a SUB-par mood, 'cuz my FAVORITE baseball team had LOST yesterday.  
... But, "after 'SLEEPING-on it", I realized that I shouldN'T be SO EASILY-unfluenced by NEGATIVE ATHLETIC-news ... that I caN'T CONTROL!
... But THEN, I remembered that the game WAS JUST PRESEASON.  So, it will-NOT COUNT!
... PLUS, MY-team WON TODAY.  So, 'tis OKAY.



-- "The HAPPINESS of your LIFE depends upon the QUALITY of your THOUGHTS."
(--Marcus Aurelius)

... KEEP putting-OUT "GOOD".  ... It WILL "come-BACK" to you "TEN-fold" in UN-expected ways.

... In OTHER-words, A.J.: 
"CONTINUE-to be OPTIMISTIC! 


CONCLUDING-Remarks:
Be "OPEN" to ... WHATEVER "comes NEXT".

... Open your minds, my friends. 
Do not fear what you do not understand.




KEY 
* = My fraternity's "SLANG-term" for ... "BEER"  

** = My fraternity's "SLANG-PHRASE" for ... "DRINK your 'BEER'!"               

*** = in Undergraduate-COLLEGE ... in PHILLY

**** = Would "BOSS" count?!



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