"Some people believe in 'FATE'. … I believe in 'CHOICES'."

…
(--University of Minnesota Gopher Wrestling Team Head Coach J Robinson))

… The Gopher-WRESTLING team is--by FAR--my FAVORITE sports TEAM/SCHOOL!

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I COULD listen to ALL of my "NAYSAYING" EX-"doctors", and just GIVE UP and NOT try.
I COULD become GREATLY DISHEARTENED at my CONSTANT "STRUGGLES" & FRUSTRATIONS?!
But, I doN'T have that NEGATIVE, PESSIMISTIC attitude.
INSTEAD, I WANT
-- to TRY,
--to ENERGIZE MYSELF,
-- to INSPIRE others in (somewhat) SIMILAR situations,
-- to OVERCOME (MANY) "obstacles",
-- to SUCCESSFULLY "DEFEAT" ALL my "OPPOSITION"!

"WHY", y'all EARNESTLY inquire.
My response--as NEO, of 'The Matrix Revolutions': "Because I CHOOSE to."

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IF I "were"--NOT "was", 'cuz the "IF" signifies "HYPOTHETICAL"--SUPERSTITIOUS, I COULD/WOULD say that I "PONGED" so well 'cuz of my "ATTIRE".
((… I wore a white T-shirt with the word--"'TURKIYE'--emblazoned across it in RED ink.  Below t0hat was a red "symbol of Islam" ("crescent-moon & a small star") … a la the Turkish-NATIONAL flag.))
(WHO would AEGUE with MY belief that my father's "MOTHER-COUNTRY" is A BIT awe-inspiring & uplifting?!)

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….
"I didn't CREATE (my HORRIBLE) 'SITUATION'!
I'm FUCKIN' DEALIN' with it!"
(--Mr. Pink, 'Reservoir Dogs')

My car-accident and ensuing injurIES are NOT my fault!  Nonetheless, I MUST "overcome"/"triumph OVER" said "obstacles"!

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"I AM,
Whatever you SAY I AM.
If I WASN'T,
Then WHY would I SAY I AM?
…"
(--'The Way I Am', Eminem)

(… DEAL with IT/ME!)





P.S. Since I quoted "M & M", does that make me "THUG4LIFE!"?


...

"CHOOSE your BATTLES."

…


"'If you live in the life you love, you will love the life you live'… 

I didn't understand it when this man said this to me a few 

years ago. But I get it. Weeded out the debbie downers, nay- 

sayers, and cynical people in my life. Now I'm on my way to 

bigger and better things with the LOVE and SUPPORT from 

the people who are left."

(--Sam Botta)




I've/You've/We've GOTTA "separate the GOOD from the 

BAD".

(… "Harness GOOD.  Block BAD."--'Happy Gilmore')



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In my CURRENT/TEMPORARY "situation", I--BASICALLY--

accept/invite ANYONE to "hang-out" with ME!

My (TEMPORARY) IN-ability to (COGENTLY) talk MUCH & 

my 



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(WARNING:)

EVERY day (… usually TWICE-a-day), I MUST "conduct a 

(painLESS) 'WAR' … with my BOWELS"!

(I JUST "won" that "SCUFFLE" … at ~1:17 pm.)



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I went 4-0 in my "'BEIRUT'"-/"BEER PONG"-"fights"--with 

THREE DIFFERENT partners.  So--Therefore--Hence--Thus, 

it's SAFE to CONCLUDE that--REALLY--'twas I who was "the 

ANCHOR/STAPLE" that "kept the "AFLOAT"/"INTACT".  




...

"AAAHHH, the TIMING!"

…
(--ME, to my most recent g/f)
(… She had JUST complained about the LOUDNESS of a passing car.  So, for the IRONY, I "RIPPED a DEAFENING" (hyperbole/exaggeration) FART ~eight seconds after her noise-complaint.
(Ha ha HA!)

(… Yeah, I have NO shame.)
((… THIS is I!  ("Predicate-nominative"--I--follows a "linking verb"--"is".)  DEAL with it!)

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I NEED (WRITTEN-)reminders!
I'm a very VISUAL-person.
(… Additionally, my--rather SUB-par memory TENDS TO be a bit "SPOTTY".)
PLUS, I have "FOUR eyes" (GLASSES), so--LITERALLY--I see TWICE the "IMAGES" of a "NORMEE"!

To HELP myself with MY OWN "FAULTY" memory, I bought a (wall-mounted) "whiteboard" on which my nurses & caregivers can/should/will/DO write daily-NOTES about my schedule.

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A simple point of PRIDE:
I WITNESSED the "World Cup"-RECORD for "FASTEST (initial) goal" is 11 SECONDS
by Hakan S(SMALL vertical line underneath)ukur (pronounced 'SHOO-kuhr') of TURKEY against the Korean Republic on June 29, 2002.

(… Although I canNOT play soccer anymore--TEMPORARILY, I STILL LOVE the sport and WATCH it very FONDLY.)

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YESTERDAY was "BLACK Friday".
(… To quote the COMEDIC television-show 'Tosh.O':
"IS it RACIST?")


...

… 'Post-Script':

…
(It's Latin for "P.S.")

I had such a GREAT/FABULOUS/JOYOUS time with my guests that I did NOT "blog".
"My BAD!"


...

On THIS DAY, I must "GIVE" "THANKS" for certain things:

… 

I'll BEGIN with the chronological END, 'cuz it was a GREAT/FUN time VERY WORTHY of ALOTTA "thanks"!I invited a VERY GOOD "friend"/"tutEE" over for dinner & games.  
(… Said "tutEE" brought two of her friends/coworkers.  WE played three games of "'BEIRUT'"/"BEER-pong" with WATER & 'CHAMPAIGN'.)
(… I utilized MY OWN knowledge of "TRIGONOMETRY" to go 3-0!)
I decided to NOT do MATH (GASP!  … BLASPHEMY!), 'cuz we're just RELAXING on a HOLIDAY.(… I made up for it by scheduling a "MATH TUTORING-session" TOMORROW night.)
(… As a PREVIEW, I made sure to ask her about the PROPER "angle" of my BOUNCES.)
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I HAFTA---FORCEFULLY--"pat MYSELF on the back" for NOT ONLY being able to SEMI-/KINDA-'comprender un poquito espan(tilde)ol', but for having the PATIENCE to NOT "freak/flip-out" at my--HISPANIC--"caregiver" EARLY this morning.

I pressed my LOUD buzzer 'TREINTA Y CUATRO' ('34') times, before he--FINALLY--answered and came.  
((… Granted, said "summoning" WAS at 4:26 am.  But, I PAY him to ANSWER, when I call.  … Oh, YEAH.  Also, when my BUZZER was apparently NOT working on/for him ("W.T.F.?!"), I started to LOUDLY SCREAM … in my very UPSET-"state" at his COMPLETE/UTTER DIS-regard for MY/"his BOSS's" well-being … to TRY TO get his attention!))
I PAY him to "be at my beck & 'CALL'"/"care about MY safety" … NOT FRICKIN' 'dormir' ('to sleep') … HEAVILY!
((… Yes, on that PARTICULAR shift (6 pm to 6 am), I HAFTA expect SOME sleep.  But, I ALREADY established that "my employEES" MUST answer--EVERY TIME--to my "bell"/"buzzer"!))

Needless to say, I am LIVID!

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…
However, I'm "BIG" on "second-chances", 'cuz NO ONE is PERFECT!  We ALL make MISTAKES!
Ergo, I gave him the OPPORTUNITY to REDEEM himself:
"Nature called" at ~7:25 am.  So, I "buzzed"--ONCE, and he--THANKFULLY--yelled back to reply and got to room QUICKLY.  
YAY!
WHEW!
Then, I had a PRODUCTIVE "TREK" TO my toilet--of 61 STEPS--TO my toilet, "made my URINARY-deposit" and "GALAVANTED" 58 STEPS BACK to bed.

… Thus, I am THANKFUL for BOTH having the monetary-assets to employ several (SOMEWHAT) competent caregivers" AND my GROWING emotional-/physical-CONTROL to NOT "make a BIG scene", when people ("TOO OFTEN"/HABITUALLY) "push my buttons".


...

"BEFORE others can RIDICULE us for our FLAWS, how 'bout we just ADMIT them?!"

… --Mr. Corey Matthews, 'Girl Meets World'

(WARNING!)

OBVIOUSLY, I tend to watch SOPHOMORIC … "CRAP" (METAPHORICAL "dung"!).
… ALTHOUGH, I do ALWAYS "admire" my OWN "FECAL-deposits".
(But, that's PURELY from a MEDICAL/BIOLOGICAL/HEALTH-related ASPECT/CONCERN!)

However--Conversely--"On the FLIP-side", I DO watch A (LARGE) NUMBER OF "QUALITY", OPTIMISTIC, INSPIRATIONAL (for/to ME) shows/events on the "boob-tube".  (… Was that OFFENSIVE?!  It was NOT MEANT to be!)  ((If it IS/WAS/WERE, 'Ah-ZOOR-dee-lehr-UHM!'  (PHONETIC Turkish for 'I apologize!')  "A thousand pardons, my liege."--'Aladdin'))

-- I'll watch just about any SPORT, b/c I WAS/AM quite ATHLETIC!
-- I LOVE the new show (on CBS at 9:00 pm EST) 'Scorpion'!
(I can REALLY relate to the program, 'cuz--ESSENTIALLY--it's about a TEAM of socially-AWKWARD/INEPT "GENIUSES" who are MIS-understood by the "OUTSIDE"-, "LESS MENTALLY prolific"-world.  Yet, they ROUTINELY utilize their UN-orthodox types/ways of THINKING to solve MANY MAJOR problems!)
-- I watch 'The Big Bang Theory' … about VERY SMART physicists.
(… KINDA like ME)

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I "GREATLY DIS-like"/ABHOR when people TRY TO fix MY "work" with their own … ESPECIALLY if it's WRONG!
The WORST part is if I "see" THEIR judgment-/calculation-ERROR/-MISTAKE, and THEY do NOT!

So, I guess MY "problem"/"issue" is … NOT a LACK OF empathy, but an OVERABUNDANCE/PLETHORA/PLENTITUDE/MYRIAD of STUBBORNNESS.
(… I'm sorry I'm NOT sorry!)

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I am VERY IM-patient!
(… I WANT TO blame my brain-injury.  But, my "T.B.I." may only be PARTIALLY responsible for my LACK OF available-time.  Upon my FURTHER "investigation", I've concluded that MY IM-patience "stems" from HAVING TO "depend" on OTHERS for ALMOST EVERYTHING!)
(… Plus, it's DIFFICULT for ME to COGENTLY/UNDERSTANDABLY "VOICE" my DIS-pleasure.)

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Of course, there IS my OBVIOUS "WEAK-link" … below my waist.
(… I'm referring to my LEGS!  … Jeez, SICKOS!)



P.S. I'm SURE I have MORE/OTHER "vices", but it's difficult to be more "OBJECTIVE".
(… I lay myself before ye "JUDGES".)



...

"Ever WONDER … if you're so busy being 'WEIRD', that you FORGET to be … 'NORMAL'?"

…
(--'Perks of Being a Wallflower')

I KNOW I am--quote-end-quote--"WEIRD", but 'tis NOT as if I hafta "THINK about it"/"make a CONSCIOUS effort" to "stand-OUT".
(… 'Tis just WHO I AM.)

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…
I really hafta FOCUS on being "NOT an anomaly"
(… It HURTS my head!)

… The LAST thing I need is MORE "PAIN" in/to my CRANIUM!

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I TEND TO be rather TRUANT.
(… Is my--USUAL/REPETITIVE--LATE-ness due to my SLOW MANUAL-operations … OR my "WEIRD"-acts/doings?
HHHMMM.
Ponder THAT!)


...

DEMONSTRATE/DISPLAY SELF-confidence.

…
"To ATTAIN success, one must PROJECT success."
(--FedEx)

"No matter WHAT,
… you've GOT to STRUT."
(--'The Nutty Professor')

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,,,.
'Unutum!'
(PHONETIC Turkish: 'OO-noo-TOOM!')
(= 'I forget!)

Alas, I HAFTA give a "GINORMOUS" "Thank you" to "The Architect"(--'The Matrix Reloaded') … of my blog … for providing/"constructing" a GENIUS "angle" to provide UPDATES on my PROGRESS and "vent" my FRUSTRATIONS!
I certainly APPRECIATE this "avenue" as a way of maintaining what LITTLE SANITY I still have!

Furthermore, I think I--MYSELF--deserve a nice "PAT-on-the-BACK" for deciding to CONDENSE my blog-posting down to ONE NIGHTLY-update of my daily-activities.

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…
Regarding my FORGOTTEN & "added BACK IN" blog-stories, I THINK 'tis BETTER for my "PSYCHE" to "highlight" my memory-ERRORS.  This way I have "DOCUMENTED-EVIDENCE" of my FORGETFULNESS, so I have an easIER time RECOGNIZING & TRYING TO FIX said "problem(S)".

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… My FURTHER forgetfulness:
I've GOTTA "give MAD-UPS" (It's SLANG for "EMPHATIC 'high-fives'.") to … MYSELF for a PHENOMENAL-application of my Biomedical- & Physics-knowledge!
((Example:
(WARNING!)
When I NEED TO "go #2", I ask to "eat" (via "G-tube"), when I'm ALREADY "in my chair".  This way I'm ALREADY HALF-squatting, so the "food" doesN'T have to go all throughout my body.  I can just "let it FREE"!))

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… Also, I've gotta give "mad-PROPS" to my "neuro-psychotherapist" for helping me sort through my MANY issues/frustrations at HOME, at my GYM & at LIFE!
Her "observation":
Stay SOCIAL!
(… Ergo, I FREQUENTLY host a "par-TAY" … to "MEET & GREET" "PEEPS"!)
((… Folks SEEM to like US--"The ROYAL 'We', the EDITORIAL"(--'The Big Lebowski').
WHY?!
"People LIKE us!  … We're NICE.  … I wear PANTS!"
(--'Horrible Bosses 2'))

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…
What a TOUGH/FRUSTRATING workout-day at "NeuroFit 360"!
(AAARRRGGGHHH!)
Today's LEG-workout was PARTICULARLY upsetting, 'cuz no matter WHAT I DID or HOW LONG I WAITED for my LEG-muscles--via the NERVE-connections--to "process" "messages" from my brain.
Nonetheless, I "sucked it up", worked on IMPROVING my PATIENCE and completed my MANY exercises--including "WALKING", KNEELING, WEIGHT-SHIFTING & "STEPPING onto" & WEIGHT-TRANSFERRING onto" EACH of my INDIVIDUAL legs on a RAISED "box-stepper thing".

Throughout ALL, you/I/we HAFTA REMAIN "glass is half-FULL"!

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"The Architect"--to ME ("The ONE") … of my blog:

"The first Matrix I designed was quite naturally perfect, it was a work of art, flawless, sublime."
("The Architect" is my best friend.  He & I like to--PLAYFULLY/JOKINGLY--"fuck with each other's LIFE".) "A triumph equaled only by its monumental failure. The inevitability of its doom is apparent to me now as a consequence of the imperfection inherent in every human being. Thus, I redesigned it based on your history to more accurately reflect the varying grotesqueries of your nature. However, I was again frustrated by failure. I have since come to understand that the answer eluded me because it required a lesser mind, or perhaps a mind less bound by the parameters of perfection. Thus, the answer was stumbled upon by another, an intuitive program, initially created to investigate certain aspects of the human psyche. If I am the father of the Matrix, she would undoubtedly be its mother.
… As you adequately put, the problem is choice. But we already know what you are going to do, don't we? Already I can see the chain reaction: the chemical precursors that signal the onset of an emotion, designed specifically to overwhelm logic and reason. An emotion that is already blinding you to the simple and obvious truth: she is going to die and there is nothing you can do to stop it." 
("SHE" = "NEUROLOGICAL-APTITUDE/-CONNECTION") 
"'Hope'. It is the quintessential human delusion, simultaneously the source of your greatest strength, and your greatest weakness."
(--'The Matrix Reloaded')




P.S. "You KNOW I've ALWAYS wanted to PRETEND to be an 'ARCHITECT'!"
(--George, 'Seinfeld')

...

I've GOTTA "give CREDIT where 'credit' is DUE"!

…

I NEED TO thank ALL of my "martial arts"-instructors for INSTILLING in me a GREAT DEAL of
DISCIPLINE, SELF-CONTROL, PHYSICAL-FITNESS & "BODY MOVEMENT"-KNOWLEDGE/-FLUIDITY.

(… For 22+ YEARS)

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I've GOTTA give "'KUDOS'" to my EXCELLENT academic-institutions (St. Thomas Aquinas High, University of Pennsylvania & Nova Southeastern-grad school) for establishing a "STRONG" intellectual-(NERDY-)"background".
(… My "doctors"--who are REALLY STUPID, STUBBORN & EGOTISTICAL--TRIED to REDEEM themselves by stating that my--"MIRACULOUS"--recovery from my "NEAR death"-experience is "PROBABLY because of (MY) 'STRONG' mental-'POWER'.)
((… They were just TRYING to "cover their (MORONIC) ASSES".)

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"PROPS" to my family for BELIEVING-IN me!
(SO MANY "doubters"/"HATERS" could've/WOULD'VE "dismissed me" as a "LOST-cause".
But, NOOO!  People who KNOW ME know that I--withOUT being a JERK--like to prove people (specifically--"DOUBTERS") SO WRONG.

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MANY THANKS to … ME … for MAINTAINING my "'IRON WILL'" (GOOD movie!), PHYSICAL- & MENTAL-"STRENGTH" and friendly-SOCIABILITY throughout my LONG, ARDUOUS, FRUSTRATING, EXTREMELY DIFFICULT RECOVERY-process!

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P.S. I am NOT showing ANY KIND of appreciation to ANY of my (SUPPOSED) "RETARDED" "doctors"!
(… THERE, Ha ha HA!  It's not so FUNNY, when I'M the one "playing the 'RETARD'-card", IS IT?!)


...

"Get busy LIVIN', or get busy DYIN'."

…
--'The Shawshank Redemption'

"… I have to remind myself that SOME 'birds' aren't meant to be 'CAGED'.
They're just too beautiful."
(--'The Shawshank Redemption')

"I'm a PEACOCK.
You've GOTTA let me FLY!"
(--'The Other Guys')

…
"I'm pretty.  I'm pretty.  I'm SOOO pretty!"
(--Muhammad Ali)

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…
"L-I-V-I-N, livin'!"
(--'Dazed & Confused')

Although MANY tasks/activities are VERY difficult & time-consuming, I'd MUCH PREFER being LONG-time--TEMPORARILY--"disabled"/handicapped to being "NON-existent"(--DUMBASS-government officials who are STILL ,,, CONVINCED … that I'm DEAD)!

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As FRUSTRATING as MY LIFE FREQUENTLY is--'cuz I caN'T walk OR talk (YET), I MUST REPEATEDLY/CONSTANTLY amuse myself--with EMAILS, SPORTS, MOVIES, MARTIAL ARTS, WORKOUTS, TUTORING, GAMES & TV.
(… My various hand-injuries KINDA PREVENT me from "TWIDDLING my THUMBS".)
(… My astigmatism also DIS-allows me from having "a WANDERING eye" … or TWO.)

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I host ALOTTA "par-TAYS" in order to NOT be a

"social-PARIAH".


….

"It's not BAD finding out you doN'T have all the answers."

… "Maybe THEN, you start asking the RIGHT questions."

(--'Thor')

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…
As SMART as I AM, I DEFINITELY, UNDOUBTEDLY, MOST ASSUREDLY do NOT have/know ALL of "LIFE"'s ANSWERS!
(… UNLESS said questions are NUMERICALLY-related.  THEN, I "RULE!")
(… I JUST--SERIOUSLY--"pushed up my GLASSES", a la "a NERD".)

(This questionnaire shall be asked by a "THIRD-party" … to PREVENT bias:)
(… That was JUST "Passive-voice".)
1) WHY did such DEVASTATING, TRAUMATIC injurIES occur to YOU (ME)--an INTELLIGENT, young man just beginning a VERY PROMISING, SUCCESSFUL ADULT-life?
1-ANSWER) "Life's a BITCH."  That was a "TEST" … of your (MY) (A.J.'s) AWARENESS,  READINESS & ADAPTABILITY.
You--A.J.--FAILED "miserably"!

2) WHY/HOW am you (I) still ALIVE?
2-ANSWER) An EXTENSIVE (CURRENTLY 22+ YEARS), INTENSE "martial arts"-history of PAIN-TOLERANCE, ASTOUNDING MENTAL-"strength", HARDCORE-/STEADFAST-determination & a "NEVER-say-DIE"-attitude/"life-OUTLOOK has propelled/"pushed" you (ME) AMAZINGLY near a FULL-RECOVERY!
(… ALSO, the FLEXIBILITY gained from 8 years of COMPETITIVE-wrestling PROBABLY helped.)

3) WHEN will you (I) (A.J.) get "BETTER"--if POSSIBLE?
3-ANSWER) With ALOTTA HOPE, "WORK" & DETERMINATION, there WILL BE … POSITIVE results.
"GOOD things come to those who WAIT."

4) WHO--if ANYONE--can "HELP" you (ME) (A.J.) along the "JOURNEY"?
4-ANSWER) I AM)  "an army of ONE"!


...

"Nobody ever CLAIMS to be 'ORDINARY'."

…
(--'Best Buy'-store)

'Tis NOT something brag-WORTHY!
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"When (someone/ANYONE) told me I couldN'T do something, it REALLY BOTHERED me … MORE than I realized."
(--'Scorpion')

(… My subconscious is VERY "STRONG"-willed!)
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…
"The difference between 'ordinary' & 'extraordinary' …
is that little 'EXTRA'."
(--'Waiting')

(… My INTELLIGENCE, WIT, HUMOR, ATHLETIC-SKILL/-PROWESS, TRIVIA-KNOWLEDGE, DETERMINATION & "ZEST for FUN" are "EXTRAordinary"!)

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…
I must "stand PROUD" (METAPHORICALLY) of who/what I once WAS!
(… And, in a SELECT "cases", still "AM"!)

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I saw a GREAT book by author Steve Jurich --
'SMART is the New RICH'.
(… The fact that I'm very much BOTH … is a MNOR detail.)

… In order to MAINTAIN my ECONOMIC-"SUPERIORITY", I MUST stay FINANCIALLY-"RESPONSIBLE".

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I am certainly NOT "run-of-the-mill" in ANY AREA!
I do NOT ENJOY "bragging"!  I PREFER to let my "WORK" "speak for itself".
(… Y'ALL: Then, what are you doing on this blog?"
My RETORT: "Shut up!  If I doN'T speak of my LAUDABLE ACCOMPLISHMENTS, then who WILL/WOULD?!"

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It's QUITE RARE that … SEVEN … "doctors" ALL suh-stuh-stam-stammered:
"He (I) shouldN'T even be ALIVE."
Furthermore, one of those "DUNCES" stated: "He'll (I'll) NEVER be more than an UN-responsive 'VEGETABLE'."
Thus, ALL I do is MY--METAPHORICAL--"BITCH-SLAP" across his face!

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I JUST/ONLY viewed a KIDS' Karate-class, and I LIKED what I saw!
(I witnessed EVIDENCE that "CHILDREN are our FUTURE."
(… They couldN'T/"didn't NEED TO" brag, so I'll "sing their PRAISES" for 'em.)

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"ASK, & you SHALL RECEIVE."
(… I ASKED my "Professor" if I may OCCASIONALLY "CO-teach" on SATURDAYS, and just VIEW, OBSERVE & "VOICE my COMMENTS/OPINIONS/MINOR-TEACHINGS" on THURSDAYS.  He replied "in the AFFIRMATIVE".)



...

"It's the PRINCIPLE!"

…
(--ME, after I--UNDESERVEDLY--received a "B+" on a grad-school-assignment)

Be "PASSIONATE" about SOMETHING, and STRIVE to really EXCEL at it.
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You haven't really lived until you've done something for 

someone who can never repay you.

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MATERIAL-"thank you"s are very much APPRECIATED!  

But, they're certainly NOT REQUIRED/NECESSARY!

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"Real beauty is the emanation of love from the heart of your 

being."

(--Harold W. Becker)

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An EX-doctor of mine AUDIBLY chuckled & snickered, "THAT 

means NOTHING", when I mentioned:

"I majored in 'Biomedical Engineering' at the University of 

Pennsylvania.  So, I MIGHT understand A LITTLE BIT of 

what you're saying."

((… Granted, I was using REVERSE-

"HYPERBOLE"/EXAGGERATION to describe my VAST 

medical-UNDERSTANDING.  STILL, it was VERY UN-

professional to (HARSHLY) CHORTLE at the HONEST 

decree of a PATIENT (ME) of his medical SEMI-

comprehension!))


… To quote "Michelle Tanner" from 'Full House':

"How RUDE!"


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I GREATLY DIS-approve of the "GROSSLY"-FALSE 

assumption that a HIGH IQ correlates to / means a GREAT 

memory!

(… Said MISTAKE was highlighted on the show, 'Scorpion'.)

MY IQ is pretty frickin' HIGH.  (I forgot the EXACT value.)

But, my memory OBVIOUSLY "sucks ASS"!

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…
"With 'GENIUS' comes 'WEAKNESS' in some areas of life."

"SOCIALLY!"

(--'Scorpion' CAST-interview) 


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"The MOST IMPORTANT things in life aren't 'THINGS'.

They're PEOPLE."

(--Toyota Camry-commercial)




...

NEVER "give up"!

…

Even though my RECOVERY has been ONGOING since July 6, 2008
(That's 2,325 DAYS.), I MUST "PUSH-THROUGH" the "SUB-par", "LESS-than-IDEAL" days--like TODAY.

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Since I am SO DETERMINED, STEADFAST & "HUNGRY for IMPROVEMENT", I HAFTA continue to TRY, until I am CONTENT/SATISFIED with the result.

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…
"For ME, uh, 'the SIXTH time's a charm'."

However, regarding my MATH-problems, my FIRST answer is
"DEAD-ON. BALLZ-ACCURATE.  …
It's an INDUSTRY-term."
(--'My Cousin Vinny')

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…
Although MANY (DAILY-)tasks take ME longER to complete than they would for a "NORMEE",
"the END justifies the MEANS".

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…
I VEHEMENTLY apologize, "Master Yoda"(--'Star Wars') for DIS-obeying your LEGENDARY, Jedi-MASTER words:
"DO, or do NOT.  There is no 'TRY'."

Ya see, I--NOW--LIVE by the SCIENTIFIC-process:
"TRIAL & Error".

Thus, I LEARN from my MISTAKES.

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This afternoon 'benim and' ('beh-NEEM AH-neh') (TURKISH for 'my mom') told me that I "SHOULD try to AVOID visiting 'TURKIYE' ('TOOR-kee-YEH') … for ASSORTED reasons.

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…
"Ya know, being DIFFERENT isn't always a BAD thing."
(--'Fantastic Four')

I've LONG been QUITE "ODD"/"STRANGE" … but "TIPPED to the 'REALLY GOOD'-side".
(… I'm an AB-normally ASTOUNDING combination of EXTRAORDINARY INTELLIGENCE, AMAZING ATHLETICISM & KIND-HEARTED EMPATHY!)


…
Since my "Traumatic BRAIN-Injury", I am DETERMINED to AGAIN prove/display my ACADEMIC/MENTAL, "SPORTY" & EMOTIONAL/PSYCHOLOGICAL/COMPASSIONATE APTITUDE!



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"(METAPHORICAL) 'WARS' are fought with 'WEAPONS'."

… "But, they are WON by MEN!"
(--'Captain America')

((… I am in a "WAR" AGAINST the REFUSAL of my LEG-nerves, LEFT-sided (&
VOCAL-)muscles to get them to FULLY "respond" to "stimuli".))

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…
I have NEVER been a FAN of "firearms".
I feel that GUNS are "the EASY/WUSSY way" to settle a SERIOUS dispute!.
I DRAMATICALLY/FERVENTLY/ADAMANTLY prefer WORDS and/or--EVENTUAL--"HAND-to-HAND COMBAT".

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…
Am I--Altan Kaynatma--a Turkish-American "DUAL-citizen"--"CAPTAIN AMERICA"?!



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"People doN'T 'bring me DOWN' (EMOTIONALLY/PSYCHOLOGICALLY)."

… "On the CONTRARY, I prefer to think of it as 'I bring THEM UP'."
(--Sheldon Cooper, 'The Big Bang Theory')

…
What can I SAY?!
I'm an OPTIMIST!

(… Also, I'm VERY PRO-"SOCIAL-interaction" … and FRIENDLY!)

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… I REALLY have BETTER workouts (upper AND lower body), when I'm SURROUNDED by a POSITIVE, COMICAL "atmosphere"!

LUCKILY/THANKFULLY, my trainers are ALL VERY "LIGHT-HEARTED"!

Thus, I am DEFINITELY/NOTICEABLY/SIGNIFICANTLY IMPROVING my PHYSICAL-/MUSCULAR-health!

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…
(LITERALLY) How could I be MORE "DOWN" than ALREADY am … IN a WHEELCHAIR?!
(… Ha ha HA!)

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… I'm ACTUALLY in a VERY GOOD mood today!
My--CURRENT--JOVIAL LIFE-outlook/opinion is PRIMARILY due to the SUCCESS of MANY of my FAVORITE athletic-teams--'cuz I'm a GUY.

(… Was THAT sexist?!
I JUST meant that MALES--GENERALLY--more CLOSELY associate & relate to "the SPORTS-world" than their FEMALE-cohorts.)


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SOMETIMES, "the PARTS are GREATER than the WHOLE".

…

Today I had a FANTASTIC LEG-workout at "NeuroFit 360"!
I did 15 DEEP "leg-lunges"--while HOLDING a horizontal-bar--on/with EACH leg.
Also, I did 20 DEEP SQUATS--with the goal of touching my butt on/to a mat that was ~18 inches … "from the FLOOR"/"off the GROUND"!

NO OFFENSE to the OWNER, but HE instructed me to squat LOWER.
"The SHOULDER-pain is JUST the muscle's STRETCHING.  It'll DE-crease with more reps."

Uuummm, NO.  It didn't.
A STAFF-member/"underling" CORRECTLY told me to WIDEN my stance, LEAN more to MY LEFT & maintain STRAIGHT BACK-posture.

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In lieu of a RECENT "work schedule"-change for ONE of my "caregivers", I HAFTA decide between "LETTING one employee GO" and/or just "DE-creasing said employee's work-hours.
(… BEFORE I make a decision, I HAFTA inspect ALL #s:

schedules, work-histories, instruction-listening skills, etc.)

(… There's ONE PARTICULAR employee of whom I'm not ESPECIALLY fond.  But--SURE ENOUGH, said employee's having a VERY REDEEMABLE night!)

(… I'll just lowER his amount of work-HOURS.)

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In regards to MY BODY:
-- My LEFT--"METALLICALLY-fused"--arm is weakER than its RIGHT-"counterpart".
-- My LEFT--"METALLICALLY-fused"
-- My LEFT--PREVIOUSLY "METALLICALLY-fused"--hip SOMETIMES struggles to THRUST to either side.

Although, my ENTIRE RIGHT-side has (OVERLY-)compensated.
((… 'I THANK My Lucky STARS'(--Webb Pierce) that I was ALREADY RIGHT-handed!
Nonetheless, I WOULD'VE adjusted and MADE MYSELF "AMBIDEXTROUS"!
(… YES, my MENTAL-strength is THAT POWERFUL!)



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… MORE #s:

…
I FOUND it!
THIS was my EXACT warm-up MATH-problem from my TUTORING-"student" yesterday:

"You drive a CONSTANT speed due EAST 40 miles/hour for 12 minutes.

THEN, you turn onto the highway, and drive straight NORTH at 60 mph for 6 minutes.

You STOP.

How FAR are you from your STARTING-point?

BONUS:

How far are you from your STARTING-point … in FEET?

(HINT: There are 5,280 FEET in a MILE.)"

((… ANSWER:

12 minutes = 1/5 of an hour

1/5 of 40 miles = 

8 MILES

6 minutes = 1/10 of an hour

1/10 of 60 miles =

6 MILES

(THIS is the HINT I gave her:)

STANDARD "right triangle" = (measurement of "side X")^2 + (measurement of "side Y")^2 = (measurement of "HYPOTENUSE")^2

Ergo, 

8 squared (64) + 6 squared (36) = X squared 

64 + 36 = 100 = x squared

x^2 = 100

Thus, x = + or - 10

(… Since we're dealing with DISTANCE, the answer is POSITIVE.)

"BONUS"-ANSWER: 

There are 5,280 feet in a mile.  

So, 

10 MILES = 

5,280 FEET x 10 = 

50,280 feet))

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So, upon my awakening this morning, I--as usual-- HAD TO "DRAIN the MAIN VEIN".  

(… HEY!  That ALL rhymes!)

So, I "WALKED" 62 steps TO my toilet and 64 steps RETURNING from my toilet.

Alas, I HAVE SIGNIFICANTLY DE-creased my "glancing DOWN" as I "WALK".

(YAY!)

I STILL--OCCASIONALLY--swing my LEFT LEG/FOOT out to MY left, and KICK my walker as I STEP forward.

(DAMN electric "pulsing" of my "Walkaid"!)

(… 2 "KICKS"/62 INITIAL steps = ~3.23%

3 "KICKS"/64 RETURN-steps = ~4.69%)

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So, THIS evening's been … A BIT … hectic!
THUS, tomorrow I'll be more EXTENSIVE/VERBOSE/CHATTY.


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Even though LIFE sometimes/frequently can be rather/VERY "SHITTY" (METAPHORICALLY),

…
you/I/we must ALWAYS attempt to IMPROVE your/my/our "bodily-STATUS".

…
"You gotta keep on livin' … L-I-V-I-N,"


“I’d like to stop thinking of the PRESENT as some minor, insignificant preamble to something else.”

(--'Dazed & Confused')

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… 
Yes, 'tis VERY IMPORTANT to focus on the "NOW".  
But, I've ALWAYS felt that if I were a school-supply, I'd be a "schedule-PLANNER".
I enjoy PLANNING my FUTURE-activities.

(… Although, based upon my mathematical-EASE & -QUICKNESS, I COULD BE a "calculator".)

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(WARNING)
"Evidence" seems to REVEAL/INDICATE that my LIFE--lately/recently--is A BIT "CRAPPY" (BOTH literally AND metaphorically).  This morning I "dropped--ANOTHER--VERY SOLID deuce". 
YAY!
"EAT IT", EX-G.I.-"Doctor"!

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I had a FANTASTIC second day of MATH-tutoring!

1) I greeted my "student" with a HARDCORE-math problem that combines ALGEBRA, TRIGONOMETRY & MULTI-variable "SUBSTITUTION".
(… I was LOW on things-to-DO, so I just MADE-UP/DEVISED/DESIGNED it MYSELF.)
(… AWKWARD silence … My brother--in Turkey: "NERD!")
2) My "pupil" THANKED me for my "VERY HELPFUL ideas, shortcuts & practice".
3) My tutEE is Hispanic, so she HELPED DISTRACT ME from my "LESS than great" Columbian caregiver.  
(… Said Hispanic "caregiver" ACTUALLY had a VERY NICE evening/night!
WHEW!)
4) … No, I am very much NOT a cultural-ELITIST!
(… I, MYSELF, am ALSO BI-cultural.  But, I ACTUALLY TRIED TO--SUCCESSFULLY--learn a SECOND language.)
((… I know--at least--"PIECES" of SIX languages (English, Turkish, Spanish, Latin, Japanese & German).))
5) Finally, my tutEE complimented me on my very UN-orthodox but "GENIUS"(--her) "tricks" to save test-taking TIME.

(… ONE example of my "TRICKS":
"Whenever you see '60 miles per hour', THINK 'a mile a minute'.  There are 60 minutes in an hour.  So, you don't NEED TO be a 'GENIUS' to compute/calculate that THAT's 60 MILES in 60 MINUTES.")


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Today's "WALKING"-stats:

…
(THAT's just what I … DO!)
(… The PRACTICING to "WALK" … AND the statistic-calculating)

Upon MY waking up … at ~6:10 am, I "summoned" my "caregiver" to "SET ME UP" for MY MORNING-"GALAVANTING".

My INITIAL "urinary-ODYSSEY" consisted of
61 "STEPS"
TO my "porcelain-THRONE"
and
65 "STEPS"
RETURNING to bed.

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…
HOWEVER, my morning "toilet-TREKS" were NOT "flawless", as I've realized my NEXT (… Yet ANOTHER) "PROJECT".
TWO of my INITIAL "STEPS" involved my LEFT-leg swinging-out WIDE LEFT & "KICKING" the outside-rail of my walker.
During my RETURN-"WALK", I "KICKED" it FOUR more times.

(… 2/61 = ~3.28 %
… 4/65 = ~6.16%)

Consequently:
YES, my REQUIRED "steps" in my "WALKS" are SLIGHTLY DE-creasing.
(… Ergo, my STRIDE/GAIT is IN-creasing.  Thus, my CONFIDENCE/TRUST in my LEG-strength is also IN-creasing.
YAY!
"BOO-YA-KA-SHA!"--'Ali G')

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UUUGGGHHH!
AAARRRGGGHHH!
My SECOND & FAR-LESS RELIABLE/PROFESSIONAL/COMPETENT nurse decided to NOT show-up this morning!
(… On the morning I actually have ALOTA plans, I think I'm ENTITLED to be REALLY F---IN' PISSED!)
I have tutoring, workout & neuropsychology.
"W.T.F."?!

(… I'd LIKE TO "WALK" ALL OVER her FACE, … since she "TRAMPLED on my ORDERS"!)

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After ALL of my "toilet-trips"--regardless of whether it was a SUCCESSFUL or UN-successful "urinary-secretion" OR "fecal-excretion"--I "WALK" the ~66 "STEPS" TO & FROM my toilet.

I made FIVE different such "TREKS" today.

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I--SUCCESSFULLY--had my FIRST tutoring-session this morning.
YAY!
She--my "student" ACTUALLY SAID, "WOW, you're REALLY helpful!  … I ACTUALLY 'get it' now.  THANKS!"
My response: "I just DO what I do."
(I didn't SAY this to HER, 'cuz I didN'T want to SEEM like an arrogant "… PLICK!"(--Jackie Chan, 'Rush Hour')
She & I REALLY ENJOYED/BENEFITTED from our little "MEETING".


P.S. Said "tutor-session" lasted ~100 minutes = ~an hour and 40 minutes = ~1.67 hours = ~6,000 seconds.


P.P.S. I could "SLEEPWALK", and do MATH.
(… I WAS.  SSSHHH!)


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"I'm not 'SOME KIND of NERD'."

…
"I am the KING of NERDS."
(--Leonard, 'The Big Bang Theory')

To review:
-- I did NOT receive/earn a "B"--on a report-card--'til my BOLD "venture" into the "Bioengineering"-major freshman year of undergraduate-COLLEGE at "Ivy League"-University of Pennsylvania.
-- I was VALEDICTORIAN of my graduating class of 2003 from the PRESTIGIOUS high school of Saint Thomas Aquinas in Ft. Lauderdale, Florida.
-- I was ~six months IN on an "Accelerated Master's Degree", when my UNFORTUNATE car-accident occurred.
-- I earned a PERFECT "800" on my "MATH-S.A.T."
-- (I COULD go on and on and on … & ON about my "LAUNDRY-LIST" of academic-accolades, but I'll spare thee.
((… Y'ALL: (Sigh of RELIEF) "WHEW!"))

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…
Why do I CONSTANTLY feel 'tis NECESSARY to name my PLENTITUDE/PLETHORA/MYRIAD of "ILLUSTRIOUS" (Go ahead: paint a PICTURE … of my scholastic-SUPERLATIVES.  I DARE ya!) recognitions of my REMARKABLE INTELLIGENCE?!

… I'll tell you:
Since I--SUPPOSEDLY--have an INTENSE/SERIOUS brain-injury, NO ONE--upon FIRST meeting me--takes my ASTOUNDING MENTAL-"strength" seriously!  It's TERRIBLY UNFORTUNATE to note … that through MY (PHYSICALLY-)disabled observations over the last ~6.33+ YEARS, I've noticed that FAR TOO MANY people are FAR TOO QUICK to make FALSE,
(EMOTIONALLY-)"HURTFUL", DISMISSIVE assumptions about my MENTAL-fortitude!
((… It's like EVERYONE bought "Milton"'s ''JUMP to Conclusions'-Mat''(--'Office Space'))

Ergo, I CONSTANTLY feel the NEED to CORRECT these INCORRECT "judgments".


P.S. I "telekinetically" made a tumor "APPEAR" on the X-ray of MY brain.
(… For Halloween I dressed as a PRE-balding, wheelchair-bound, mentally-ASTONISHING Professor X from 'X Men'.)

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"I very rarely think in words at all. A thought comes, and I 

may try to express it in words afterwards." -Albert Einstein

(… I think in NUMBERS.

I encounter a "PREDICAMENT", and I attempt to "SOLVE" 

said "PROBLEM" by QUICKLY determining the 

PROBABILITY of SUCCESS.

… Over a NUMBER of "TRIALS"--IF this action is a 

REPEATED exercise, then I'd then analyze the resulting 

STATISTICS.)


… The DIFFICULT aspect is ACCURATELY DESCRIBING 

said "NUMBERS" to OTHERS.


(… I'd IMAGINE/HOPE that MY way of "PROBLEM-

SOLVING"/"QUANTITATIVE ANALYSIS" may/will be 

EASIER with/in my MATH-tutoring.)


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...…
"If you think about it, it's a GREAT word:

'MA'--which is good … and 'NEWER'--which is GREAT.

Break it down: 'MA', 'NEWER'.

Where's the PROBLEM?"

(--George, 'Seinfeld')

(… Said "GREAT word" is "MANURE"--a NOT-SO 
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Tomorrow morning, I SHALL begin my MATH-tutoring 

service.  

(… HOPEFULLY--Actually, I'm CONFIDENT, I can CONVEY 

my MATHEMATICAL "picture-making"/"problem-

solving"/"IMAGERY" to my "tutEE".)  


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As my "neuropsychologist" BRILLIANTLY concluded, 

"NUMBERS RELAX (me)."

ALAS:

"How many times do I have to get SCREWED, before I learn

my lesson?!"

(--'Scorpion', an episode about a MATHEMATICAL-algorithm 

used to generate award-winning music)










MORAL

CONTRARY to MY CONSTANT quantitative-analysis, 

numbers/math caN'T solve/predict EVERYTHING … just A 

LOT!




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