"We are ALL HERE TO DO what we're ALL HERE TO DO."

…
(--The Oracle, 'The Matrix')

"We can NEVER 'see' PAST the choices we doN'T UNDERSTAND."
(--The ORACLE)

… I--A.J.--KNOW & UNDERSTAND WHAT I MUST do.
(… WALK & TALK)
I've GOT the RESILIENT & DETERMINED "work-ethic".
'Tis now a matter of …
PATIENCE.

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…
My mom--to ME:
"You HAVE 'the sight' now.  You are looking at the world 'WITHOUT TIME'."
ME--to HER:
"My NAME … is 'NEO'."
(--'The Matrix Reloaded')

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"You've got to harness-in the GOOD energy, and block the BAD.
Harness--GOOD.
Block--BAD."
(--WEIRDO-golfer, 'Happy Gilmore')

(  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OAs2PBL1RsA  )

(… "COPY & PASTE" the "YouTube"-link.)

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…
WHY am I in such a GOOD mood?!
Well, I showed.TAUGHT two of MY 'Jiujitsu'-('GROUND-fighting'-)techniques to the KIDS' martial arts class.
(… They were WELL-received by BOTH the STUDENTS & my "PROFESSOR"!)

…
Since I doN'T really have a (PAYING-("JOB", "sharing SOME of my "martial arts"-KNOWLEDGE is something I MUST DO … for the/MY "little" students AND for MY sanity!



...

'Baby Steps'

…
(('Tis the title of a BOOK written by psychiatrist, "Dr. Leo Marvin" (Richard Dreyfuss) in the brilliantly-HILARIOUS film, 'What about Bob?'))

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(WARNING!)
EARLY this morning (at ~4:38 am), I awoke--from my "SOUND" slumber--to some ODD "grumbling" from my stomach.  After WAITING & "EVALUATING my 'gastrointestinal-PREDICAMENT'", I went to my "porcelain-THRONE".
There I "dropped a (LOVELY) DEUCE" … 'en mi "JUAN"'.
((… I could/should have A BIT of a "Bowel-Bursting BONANZA"!  WHY?

1) My excretions were two SOLID "stools"!
2) My "Excretory-Excavation" came/was BEFORE/WITHOUT any medicinal-HELP/-STIMULANT!
3) I could SEMI-smell my "END-products"!
("PUN" intended.))

MY Evaluation/Conclusion:
The "FINAL-products"/"END-results"/"Excretory-OUTPUT" of my digestive system may NOT be pleasant-READING.  But, it's an INTEGRAL aspect of my "RECOVERY".  Thus, I MUST blog about it.
''C'est la vie.''
('That's life' … for ME.)

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YEP, as CORRECTLY predicted--by ME--my HIP JUST needed ALOTTA "R & R" ("Rest & Relaxation").
So, that's YET ANOTHER "point" for ME.  While, my (MEDICAL) "doctors" CONTINUE to "WASTE (MY) oxygen" with ZERO--CORRECT--MEDICAL answers for/about ME.
(… JEEZ!  Am I THAT MUCH/BIG of a MEDICAL/BIOLOGICAL "ANOMALY"?!)
(… Apparently, YES, I AM!
… Go back to SCHOOL, "Dr. DOOFUS"!)

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So, TODAY at "NeuroFit 360", I "performed" a more LITERAL application of the blog-TOPIC.
I took SMALL steps from side-to-side ALONG a table--with BOTH hands UP, OFF said table--as I took NINE SIDE-steps ALONG the table.
THEN, I completed the SAME exercise in the OPPOSITE direction--EIGHT steps--hands-FREE.
Finally, I utilized my LEANING & FOOTWORK to STAND--withOUT holding onto ANYTHING!
(YAY!)

THROUGHOUT the "ordeal", I thought of a line from 'Little Giants':
"It looks like Mr. MO-Mentum MAY be changing his AH-dress."

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When I was JUST an EIGHTH grader, I rode--ALONE--in my own PRIVATE/PERSONAL bus--to a local HIGH SCHOOL (grades 9 - 12 … NOT 8) for "Algebra I", 'cuz I'd "EXHAUSTED" my MIDDLE SCHOOL of ALL of ITS "MATHEMATICS-curriculum".
(… "PROPS" to my mom for "drawing attention" to my BOREDOM in "MIDDLE school"-MATH.  PREVIOUSLY, I'd come home from school and "BITCH about" my EXTREME-BOREDOM in MATH-class.  So, 'benim ane' ('beh-NEEM AH-neh') (TURKISH for 'my mom') told the school-board of my LACK OF … anything CLOSE to MY academic-STANDARDS in the MATHEMATICAL-field.)
(… I "ACED" "Algebra I"--DESPITE being MERELY an EIGHTH grader.)
(… On two SEPARATE occasions, the teacher gave me a HARANGUE/DIATRIBE for "SLEEPING IN CLASS".  I merely CHUCKLED--under my breath--and muttered:
"What are you gonna do--give me DETENTION?!  Ha ha HA!"

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CONTINUING my NEWLY-found/discovered "FLUENCY" in "NUMEROLOGY", when I ACTUALLY moved on to REAL-LIFE, FULL-TIME "high school", by my SENIOR year (12th grade), I took "Advanced Placement (COLLEGE-level) Statistics" … as my "ELECTIVE"!
(… SIMULTANEOUSLY, I took "A.P. Calculus BC".)

((… I "ACED" BOTH classes … AND earned "5"s (the HIGHEST/BEST score on a 1 to 5 scale) on the "A.P.-examS".)


MORAL
…
"Being a 'GENIUS' is NOT all it's cracked up to be."
(--'Scorpion')

"(PROPER, COGENT) COMMUNICATION is KEY(/heavily-NEEDED/NECESSARY/TANTAMOUNT/POLITE)!"

…

Yesterday my "SPEECH-Therapist" realized--about an hour BEFOREHAND--that she'd be LATE for my "session".  So, she CALLED to POSTPONE said "appointment" to a later TIME … THAT DAY.

TOTALLY UNDERSTANDABLE.

Later, something "CAME UP".  (… BUMMER!) But, AGAIN!  She was NICE/RESPECTFUL/COURTEOUS ENOUGH to CALL & INFORM ME of her--UNFORTUNATE--dilemma.

So, she/we rescheduled for (early) THIS AFTERNOON.
I ATE--via MOUTH--ALL of ONE scrambled egg.

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Last week I--REGRETFULLY--informed the owner of my VERY HELPFUL/BENEFICIAL LEG-gym, "NeuroFit 360" that I'll be working-out for ONLY 60 minutes, UNTIL "my LEFT hip is 100% 'GTG' ("Good-To-Go")".
Also, I informed him that I'll be bringing-in my wheelchair--that he HATES, for that SAME time-frame.

I told him that "I'll PROBABLY/HOPEFULLY be good ENOUGH by Monday."

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I shared my SATURDAY-schedule with my MAIN 'Sempai' ('ASSISTANT-"martial arts instructor').  He & I AGREED that we shall CO-TEACH my four-to-five 'JIUJITSU'-('GROUND-fighting'-) techniques THIS Saturday.
YAY!

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…

So, I've received "COMMENTS" from two DIFFERENT, CLOSE people I know
(Thanks A LOT!)
to NOT include DETAILED-remarks about my
"Extreme Excretory-Endeavors"/"Fecal-Frenzies"/"Bowel-Brewhaha"/"Poop-Parties".
Your requests have been KINDLY noted & appreciated.

I will "drastically DE-crease"/MINIMIZE my "Comments about my Crap".
But, I can/will NOT "eliminate" said blog-subjects COMPLETELY!
MUCH to my readers' CHAGRIN, gastrointestinal-HYPERactivity is VERY MUCH an IMPORTANT aspect of my RECOVERY.

Since my "REHABILITATION" is--by NO MEANS--"all FUN & GAMES", y'ALL (my READERS) are just gonna HAFTA "suck … it … UP" (… NOT literally) and "DEAL with it"!

(… But, PLEASE, do NOT interpret MY "Rectal-Remarks" as ANGER!
I ALWAYS APPRECIATE "feedback", & I encourage "pointers" from "the PEANUT-GALLERY".)



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"The past is the PAST, and the future's NOW."

…
(--Joe Dirte, 'Joe Dirt')

"(GOOD, PROMISING, MEDICAL) Things are gonna happen for me.  I'm Joe Dirt."
(… 'Tis YET ANOTHER alias/alter-ego of mine.)

I must NOT "live in the PAST"!
My "PRESENT-tense" "-"situation" is NOT IDEAL, nut it's TOLERABLE.
My FUTURE looks/appears MORE & more PROMISING, as I CONTINUE to EXCEL in/during my "RECOVERY"/"REHABILITATION!

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….
"I KNOW this, because it is my PURPOSE."
(--The Key-Maker, 'The Matrix Reloaded')

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I/We canNOT ALTER/CHANGE the PAST.
I/We MUST FOCUS on creating our IDEAL FUTURE … which begins

…

(PAUSE for DRAMATIC-effect.)

…

NOW!

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I'm LIVING the REAL-LIFE dramatic-interpretation of the 1994 Harrison Ford film,
'CLEAR & PRESENT DANGER'.

(… SHUCKS!)
(… No WONDER why I caN'T find ANYONE with whom to "chill"!)

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Today at "NeuroFit 360", I used my knowledge/experience of 'futbol' ('soccer') to HELP ME "exercise"/stretch my weakER LEFT shoulder.  I maneuvered my (INCONSISTENT to OPEN) hands around a soccer ball, lifted the 'TOHP" (PHONETIC Turkish for 'ball') OVER my HEAD, threw it DOWN & AWAY against a "bounce-back"-screen & caught it.
(… I ONLY caught the ball after SIX of my 13 THROWS.  6/13 = ~46.15%)
(… WEAK!)



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"VICTORY" … STARTS/BEGINS as a MENTAL/PSYCHOLOGICAL "game".

…

"Success is the piece of mind knowing that you've given your all to achieve a goal." --Jordan Burroughs, American International-Champion WRESTLER

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So, I've--SUCCESSFULLY--begun my "HIP-rehabilitation"!
SUNDAY I "WALKED" my FIRST--pain-LESS/-FREE "TREK" from my bed to my toilet (to "STAND" & urinate) in ~ONE WEEK.
MONDAY (YESTERDAY) I VENTURED to "NeuroFit 360"--my LEG-gym--for my scheduled LEG-workout.  
((… Mind you, I lowered my "EXERCISE-time" from 90 to (ONLY) 60 minutes, 'cuz I wanna "EASE back" into my "workout-ROUTINE".  
… What a GREAT, INTUITIVE idea, A.J.!))
((… NEXT WEEK, ("Knock on wood."), I'll switch BACK to my USUAL/NORMAL schedule of  90-minute WORKOUTS on Mondays & Wednesdays AND a 60-minute WORKOUT on Fridays.  …
UNLESS--HHHMMM, my 60-minute WORKOUT yesterday went SO WELL, that I'm CONSIDERING shifting my workout-scedule to … 
ALL 60-minute "TRIALS".))

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FIRST, you've GOTTA "see" your SUCCESS.  
THEN, you've GOTTA "attack" & CONQUER.

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This afternoon I "broke-in" my NEW cribbage-board with my most "NARROW" victory EVER!
We (My mom's LONGTIME-friend from Minnesota & I) were BOTH "in the STINK-HOLE" ("ONE POINT AWAY from a WIN" … out of 121 points TOTAL), before I "came through" … in the CLUTCH!

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"'SUCCESS' is the peace of mind knowing that you've given your all to achieve a goal." --Jordan Burroughs

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(… YESTERDAY, this was JUST AFTER I--while SITTING in a MANUAL-wheelchair--pushed/pulled my way AROUND the ENTIRE "complex" at which "NeuroFit 360" is.)

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"Visualize" … YOUR triumph!
"To WRESTLE is to be HUMAN:

-- To STRUGGLE
-- To OVERCOME
-- To 'TRIUMPH'."

"'STRENGTH' is the power to CHANGE."
(--'Obsessed Wrestler')

((…. I WAS a LONGTIME (EIGHT YEARS) (high school AND college)--COMPETITIVE--"wrestler".))

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"It's not what HAPPENS that counts.  
It's how you REACT."
(--Bruce Lee)




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SURROUND yourself with GOOD/GREAT people/TEAMmates!

…

'Tis VERY IMPORTANT to keep OVERALL-morale HIGH!
I mustN'T let OTHERS "bring-DOWN" my rather UN-stable "SENSITIVITY-level".

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I've "let-GO of"/"released"/FIRED three employees.
ONE of 'em CONSTANTLY, CONSISTENTLY UPSET/IRRITATED/ANNOYED me.
The next "IRRESPONSIBLE 'TOOL'" kept ALOTTA ALCOHOL HIDDEN at MY HOUSE!
(… TSSSK, TSSSK!)
Finally, the THIRD IN-subordinate "NOT-so-nice" worker just REFUSED to improve his ENGLISH-comprehension!
(… In fact, after I asked SAID "foreigner" to "IMPROVE his"/"ONLY SPEAK" ENGLISH to ME, SAID "THICK-skulled" employee's English actually got WORSE!)

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…
My MAIN-nurse is QUITE friendly, understanding, smart, EMPATHETIC & responsible.
(… IRONICALLY/MIRACULOUSLY, she was ALSO in a coma.)
She's an INSPIRATION to … ME!

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Generally, I TEND to ONLY befriend/"associate WITH" GOOD people, … 'cuz I can better RELATE TO a person who "possesses" a CONSCIENCE/MORALITY-/"VALUE"-system!



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((Steve Urkel) (Jaleel White) of 'Family Matters' HIGH, SQUEAKY, ANNOYING voice:)) "Did I … DO that?!"

…

My neural-psychologist--to my mom--about MY blog: "WHY does A.J. blog about BAD stuff?  'I thought he's supposed to give people … HOPE!'"
My mom's retort: "I like to think that he DOES.  …
Some people just doN'T WANT it!"
My neural-psychologist: "My OTHER patients 'know a hero 

when (they) see one.  Too few characters out there 

(METAPHORICALLY), flying around (METAPHORICALLY--

on his WHEELCHAIR) like that, saving old girls like me. 

And, Lord knows, kids NEED a hero. A courageous, self-

sacrificing person.  Setting examples for all of us.  

Everybody LOVES a hero.  People line up for them, cheer 

them, scream their names.  And, years later, they'll tell how 

they stood in the rain for hours just to get a glimpse of the 

one who taught them how to hold on a second longer.  I 

believe there's a hero in all of us, that keeps us honest, 

gives us strength, makes us noble, and--finally--allows us to 

die with pride, even though sometimes we have to be 

steady, and give up the thing we want the most--EVEN our 

dreams.'"

(I STUMBLE in--after EAVESDROPPING.)

ME: "I CERTAINLY appreciate the two of you 

COMPLIMENTING me by quoting 'The Amazing Spiderman 

2'!  

However, as 'hope-FULL' as I am, I like to THINK that if I 

WERE a 'superhero', I'd be 'IRONman' … 'cuz I'm ~HALF-

metal ('cuz of my METALLIC surgical-implants), ~HALF-

man.  … PLUS, I HAVE been known to be rather HELPFUL 

& INSPIRING.  … ALSO, PLEASE, Doc, do NOT IMPLY that 

I'm a 'DREAM-killer'!  I PREFER to explain MY 'work' as 

INFLUENCING or converting 'DREAMS' into 'REALITY'.  … 

ACTUALLY, now that I think about it: (Calculating/Double-

checking my math) I'm half-MAN, half-AMAZING."

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…
Speaking of my "GIVING", I "TREATED" two friends out to a WONDERFUL lunch at my FAVORITE Turkish restaurant!  
(… Since I canNOT attend their out-of-state MARRIAGE-ceremony, I transported 'em THERE (AND back to MY house, recommended any/ALL food-/drink-selections & PAID FOR the mealS.  That GREAT conversation/talking & DELICIOUS food was my wedding-GIFT.)

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…
During SAID meal, my "high school valedictory" was mentioned.
(… DAMN my IMPROPER "PASSIVE-voice"!)
I SEMI-joked/-bragged how MY speech was rather/VERY "TOUCHING".
((… SSSHHH!  I doN'T WANT the POLICE to "LOCK me UP" for "pedophilia" ("high school kids" = "aged 15 to 18").))


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SOMETIMES … you've just gotta "SUCK … IT … UP".

…

This MORNING I attended a KIDS' Karate-class.
I WATCHED … as one of my 'Sempai' & a GREAT 'Karateka' ('Karate-student') (… a BROWN belt) practiced & showed--ONLY ME--MY five DESIGNED/DEVISED 'jiujitsu'-('GROUND-fighting'-) techniques.
(I'll TEACH 'em on Thursday.  I am debating on whether to IGNORE my HARSH hip-pain & DEMONSTRATE the defense-tactics MYSELF this Thursday OR to "REWARD my assistants" & let THEM display MY ideas.)

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…
I COULD/"MAYBE should" "go with my GUT" & lie on the mat MYSELF--just to "see how it FEELS".
(… THIS tactic would DIS-obey the thoughts/recommendations/ORDERS of my MAIN-nurse … & my LEFT-hip … AND my CONSCIENCE.)

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…

I decided--MYSELF--to BEGIN my "HIP-rehab TESTING" by "WALKING" to my toilet to "STAND" & urinate into my "john".
Granted, I took ALOTTA … SMALL steps (58) to get there AND to return to bed (54), but it's "COMFORT/PROGRESS" over "IMBALANCE/'POSSIBLE (FURTHER) INJURY".
But, 'twas a pain-FREE/-LESS "TREK"!
Thus, … YAY!

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TODAY/TONIGHT, I decided to join a good buddy in a trip to see a group of NEW people--whoM I did NOT know--for a (SOCIAL) bonfire.
(… I'm ALWAYS okay with "MEETING PEOPLE"/"SOCIAL GATHERINGS"/GET-TOGETHERS!  My--CURRENT, TEMPORARY--IN-ability to--CONSISTENTLY COGENTLY--speak makes such meetings AWKWARD withOUT a good friend with me … for PROPER introductions.
Thus, MY social-schedule KINDA/"VERY MUCH" DEPENDS upon the work-timelines of OTHERS.

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…
Regarding my JOURNEY to the "BONFIRE":
"They can't ALL be WINNERS."
So, I went to the bonfire-SHINDIG, but it wasN'T exactly … FUN.
I DID stay for ~two hours, but I became VERY COLD.
(… PLUS, I was VERY TIRED.)
So, I left.

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OBVIOUSLY, the TIMING of WHEN to DISPLAY one's EFFORT/BRAVERY/"BALLZ" is (VERY) CIRCUMSTANTIAL.


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"Do not 'JUDGE', lest ye be 'JUDGED'."

…
(--Matthew 7:1, Holy Bible)

…
If I were a CHILD, I'd TRANSLATE this blog-topic to
"I'm RUBBER, and you're GLUE.
Whatever YOU say bounces off ME and sticks to YOU."

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I will NEVER forgive a (RECENTLY) FORMER employee/"caregiver" who "UNLEASHED"/"brought"/"carried" REVOLTING/SICKENING/ANNOYING "bed-bugs" into MY house!
(… WORSE yet, said "DOOFUS" DENIES  said WRONGDOING!!)
(… HHHMMM, I did NOT have "bed-bugs" … EVER!   … I hired said "DIP-SHIT".  … I heard COMPLAINTS from … OTHER "employees" of BUGS & ITCHING.  … This "BOZO" went on vacation.  … DURING this allotted time, there were NO "signs"/indications/COMPLAINTS of ANY irritating-INSECTS.  … Employee-in-QUESTION returns.  … A week later, "bed-bugs" return.
DAMNIT!)
(… Y'all "follow" the CHRONOLOGICAL-notes, analyze 'em & make a CONCLUSION.)

(… "Am I wrong?  AM … I … WRONG?!"--Walter, 'The Big Lebowski')
((… Y'all: "No, (Altan), you're not WRONG!  You're just an … ASSHOLE!"--The Dude, 'The Big Lebowski')
ME: ''C'est la vie.''
(… 'Such is LIFE'  in French)

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I had a GREAT "SPEECH therapy"-session
… EXCEPT that my mother FORGOT to buy me (ALOTTA) eggs, so I may EAT--via MOUTH.
Although I was VERY UPSET & DISAPPOINTED ('cuz I--flat-out--ASKED/TOLD her to get me eggs)!
Nonetheless, I played a "STANDUP"-game of Scrabble with my SPEECH-therapist.
(… I ELOQUENTLY/COGENTLY pronounced EACH of the 22 words we "created"/played.)

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ASHAMEDLY, I DID "lose control" of my emotions … TWICE today.
-- First, BOTH my caregiver AND my nurse stepped/went out to my pool-area to check the water-temperature (withOUT informing ME).  So, after ringing my bell NINE times and pressing my LOUD buzzer 17 times, my FRUSTRATION & CONCERN "overcame me".  I THREW my (metal) bell ~15 feet onto the FLOOR of my room.
-- Secondly, BOTH my SPEECH-therapist were in--UNBEKNOWNST to ME--(SEPARATE) bathrooms.  My (SPEECH-)therapist & I had JUST finished a "WILD game" of Scrabble, and I could NOT reach the bag of MORE tiles.  Thus, I LOUDLY & IMPATIENTLY yelled-out for STANDING-.help.  While YELLING, I kinda "SUNK/sat DOWN to POUT".
(… VERY UN-attractive!)

(… AUDIBLE sigh!)
I MUST "live & LEARN"!



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"SERENITY now!"

…
(--Frank Costanza, 'Seinfeld')

...
"INSANITY later."
(--Lloyd Braun, 'Seinfeld')

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"Ya know, EVENTUALLY, … EVERYONE fits in."
(--Walter to Paige, about her PRE-genius son Ralph, 'Scorpion')

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"Sometimes 'CRAZY' LOOKS like 'SAD'.  But, that's just to 'SUCK YOU back IN'."
(--Leonard about Sheldon, 'The Big Bang Theory')

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Even though I am by NO MEANS a RELIGIOUS man, I must ACKNOWLEDGE that there might be a "highER being".  Ergo, I thought--in lieu of my CURRENT/TEMPORARY "situation"--this time might be a GOOD time for a/the "Serenity Prayer":

God, grant me the SERENITY to accept the things I cannot change,

The COURAGE to change the things I can,

And the WISDOM to know the difference.

((… I have the "BALLZ" ("BRAVERY") to CHANGE my type of mobility.
… I WILL--EVENTUALLY--WALK!))


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"WICKED-SMAHT"(--'Good Will Hunting') guys--such as MYSELF--CAN be "DUPED".

…
"Easily, you (we) become SO FOCUSED that you (we) lose 'peripheral vision', … and its on the OUTSKIRTS where ulterior-motives lie."
"Geniuses state FACTS.  So, they (we) ASSUME others state facts too."

"He's (POTENTIALLY: "I'm") mentally-ENABLED, and I THINK he (I) might've been taken advantage of BECAUSE of that."

"Not all SMART people are seen so bright, … like when that GENIUS-sized 'chip on your (my) shoulder' clouds your (my) judgment."

(--'Scorpion')

(… I TRY to ALWAYS "see the BIG-picture".  I HAFTA "PLAN … AHEAD of time", 'cuz--just about--EVERYTHING takes ME a little longER to accomplish/complete.
((… Yes, I AM slowER--only PHYSICALLY.  MENTALLY actually, I seem to CONSTANTLY "operate"/process/think in "HYPERDRIVE"/"LUDICROUS-speed"(--'Spaceballs').))
(… ALAS, 'tis "a cross I must bear".  ''C'est la vie'' = French for 'Such is life'--for ME)

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STRANGELY, "NUMBERS" RELAX me.
(1^2 x 3 divided by 4 + 5 - 6 = …
0.5 = 1/2)
(… That ALSO displays the "Order of Operations" of MATH.)

(ZZZZZZZ)

ALSO, "crisp", WELL-constructed/-performed "MARTIAL ARTS"-techniques CALM me.
Ergo, I attended (KIDS') Karate-class today.

… It was QUITE PROMISING/ENCOURAGING to witness MOST of the young 'Karateka' EXCELLING & UNDERSTANDING the general-idea/-principle/-theme of the class's teachings.
(The IMPORTANCE of 'Bushido' = 'the MARTIAL way', discipline  & respect)

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('B's:
"Bears.  Beets.  Battlestar Galactica."
(--Dwight Schrute, 'The Office')

(… Homophone:)
…
"BEES are my THIRD-favorite flying-creature … behind Mothra & griffins, of course."
(--Sheldon, 'The Big Bang Theory')



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GREAT "READ"!

…
No, I am NOT recommending a favorite LITERARY-piece.
I meant "READ" as METAPHORICAL.
((However, if I "WERE" ("HYPOTHETICAL" verb-tense) to be LITERAL about the "READ"ing, I'd HIGHLY/GREATLY prefer Dr. Seuss's
'Great Day for UP'!

((… NOT ONLY does the book have a PHENOMENAL "play on words"--for ME (literal = MY WALKING, & metaphorical/figurative = MY EMOTIONAL stability), but, even as a CHILD, I DID enjoy the author's WELL-placed/-timed HUMOR.))

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So, my MAIN nurse ACCURATELY/INSIGHTFULLY determined MY feelings/emotions WHEN in a VULNERABLE state.
When she asked me TODAY how my HIP was feeling, I remarked, "MUCH BETTER".
When she asked me the SAME QUESTION three days ago, I grimmaced and remarked that the "PAIN-level" was "about a 7 out of 10".
"WHOA," she stated, "you (ME) are NOT one to COMPLAIN.  So, if YOU (ME) say it's painful, then it must REALLY be BAD!"

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NO, it's NOT some "MACHO"-thing, some character-/personality-FLAW in which I FEAR/think that SHOWING/ADMITTING PAIN is a display of WEAKNESS.
I simply have--through 22+ YEARS of HARDCORE "martial arts"-training--"CONDITIONED myself" to "NOT feel"/IGNORE pain.

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I agree with how UFC WOMEN'S Bantamweight Champion Ronda Rousey deals with PAIN:
It's JUST nerve-impulses "FIRING" to the brain to CONSIDER the stimulus.  It CAN be IGNORED/"BLOCKED-OUT".

Y'all--to ME: "So, you're KIND OF … a GIRL."
ME: (SIGH) "Interpret THAT as you see fit."


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"BOOZEday-TUESday"!

…

(MINUS the alcohol-imbibing)

I had QUITE a STELLAR "UPPER body"-workout today!

Granted, I HAD TO--CONSTANTLY--reposition myself for MORE ARM-strength leverage & LESS BODY-weight/-stress on my SORE LEFT hip.

I've been stretching my LEFT (SERIOUSLY-INJURED, METALLIC) shoulder--DAILY, & my "UPPER body"-trainer 

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…

CRUD!

My mom & her LONG-TIME friend (from MINNESOTA) were SUPPOSED TO visit tonight, but my mother is "under the weather".

(… BOO for UN-healthy life!)

(… Yes, I DO "speak from EXPERIENCE".)

(… UNFORTUNATELY!)

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With NO visitors tonight,  

that "allows me more time to do what I do BEST--enlighten & AMAZE".

(--DR. Sheldon Cooper, 'The Big Bang Theory')

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Back during my COLLEGE-career/-tenure, my fraternity ('Sigma Alpha Epsilon') RECOGNIZED me as the EXTRAORDINARY "drinker"/LEADER I AM.
FELLOW-"Brothers"/-Members built a TABLE for ME … AND named it after ME.
("The A.J. Kaynatma Table for Competitive Drinking")

AFTER my graduation, my youngER "brethren" RE-named an ENTIRE room after ME:
"The A.J. Kaynatma Arena for Alcohol-Abuse".

… Evidently,
"'HEROES' get REMEMBERED, but 'LEGENDS' never 'DIE'."
(--'The Sandlot')

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ALAS, I REALLY ENJOY every-OTHER Tuesday (like TODAY), 'cuz I get to discuss any/ALL home-ISSUES/-PROBLEMS & my blog-posts with my neural-therapist/neural-psychologist.

(… I'm NOT sure of her EXACT title.  Thus, I apologize!)

...

I have a "THEORY".

…
Since my LEFT-hip is QUITE tired & KINDA sore, I'm gonna REST it.


http://vimeo.com/102082818

(… YES, if you just COPY the link, and PASTE it into the "Search-bar", you'll see the VIDEO.)
(… I tried it--SUCCESSFULLY.)

THUS, I decided to CANCEL/POSTPONE my LEG-workout TODAY 'til my hip's BETTER (… NEXT Monday … or, HOPEFULLY, THIS Wednesday/Friday).
'Tis BETTER/SMARTER to give my (LEFT) hip TIME … to REST & RECUPERATE, than it'd be to "PUSH the STRENGTH-/ENDURANCE-limits" of said MUSCLE.
My mother SUGGESTED that I go get my HIP "checked-out"by a "doctor".  (Again, the "" indicate my UTTER LACK OF respect for MEDICAL "doctors".)
SHE & my (MAIN-)nurse THINK that my HIP-pain MAY have something to do with my PUSH-UPS that I did a few (3)--SEPARATE--days earlIER in the week.
I beg to DIFFER.
(… My FORM/technique is/was quite CORRECT.  After 22+ YEARS of "martial arts"-training, I'm pretty DAMN-SURE that I KNOW HOW to DO a PROPER push-up!)

… My "hypothesES":
1) I TEND to OVER-"work" SOME of my muscles to COMPENSATE for SOME of my (TEMPORARILY) "DEAD" muscle-NERVES.
2) Also, SOME of my muscles are being "RE-born", because they were "DORMANT" for SO LONG.
3) Ergo--Hence--Thus--Therefore--Consequently, SAID "muscles" grew TIRED, weakER & SORE quickly.
4) This NEW fatigue quickly "morphs"/changes into PAIN.
5) I SIGNIFICANTLY DE-crease the ACTIVITY with/on/using SAID muscles for AT LEAST FOUR DAYS (= 96+ HOURS).
6) SAID "PAIN" SHOULD MOSTLY be GONE.


Conclusion (THUS FAR):
… At the END of Day-1 (TODAY), my HIP has VERY MUCH started its "PATH to IMPROVED feeling".

(… YES!)
(…BRAVO to MY EXCELLENT implementation/application/understanding of MY OWN biomedical- & physical-/kinetic-KNOWLEDGE!)


(… Granted, this is NO "Einstein's THEORY of RELATIVITY".  It's MAINLY applicable to ME.)



Video-TANGENT:
Aren't my legs (specifically: THIGHS) … GORGEOUS?!


...

My mom--to ME: "What's WRONG?"

…
ME: "I just wish I KNEW what I'm SUPPOSED TO do."
(--'The Matrix Reloaded')

(… Well, TECHNICALLY, I KNOW that I'm--EVENTUALLY--"SUPPOSED TO" WALK & TALK.  I'm just--STILL--determining the "HOW"!)

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"Doing the SAME thing but expecting a DIFFERENT result is the definition of 'INSANITY'."
(--Walter, 'Scorpion' … SEMI-quoting Albert Einstein)

(… Thus, by WAITING for my nerves to RE-generate, ALL the while CONTINUING to PRACTICE my "STEPS" & SPEECH, am I--REPEATEDLY--confirming my OWN "INSANITY"?!)

(… "That's, like, YOUR OPINION, man."
--The Dude, 'The Big Lebowski')

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"I made a PROMISE (to MYSELF).  … And, some promises caN'T be UN-made."
(--Link, 'The Matrix Reloaded')

(… I can/will NOT lie … to MYSELF!)

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"When (people) say I caN'T do something, … it BOTHERS me … MORE than I REALIZE!"
(--Walter, 'Scorpion')

'Tis NOT that I'm BAD/EVIL/INSUBORDINATE.  It's just that I ABHOR (NON-mathematical) "limits"!

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"'HIGH-risk activities' areN'T an emotional-DISTRACTION.  They are RELAXING.  … When RISK is involved, it occupies my ENTIRE brain--freeing me from OTHER thoughts.  … It's MEDITATING."
(--Walter--to Toby, a WORLD-CLASS psychologist, 'Scorpion')

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"The Architect" (of my blog)--to ME: "YOU are the EVENTUALITY of an 'ANOMALY'."
ME: "Can I get an 'AMEN!'?"
"The Architect": "'DENIAL' is the most FUNDAMENTAL & PREDICTABLE human-flaw."
(--'The Matrix Reloaded')
ME: "Since I'm NOT 'denying' my 'ANOMALY'-esque traits, are you IMPLYING that I am NOT human?!"

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P.S. "My name is ... 'NEO'!"
(--'The Matrix')



..

(SIGH) MISSED Opportunities

…

This afternoon I went to the movie-theater with a buddy from high school.
We saw the heralded film 'Foxcatcher'--starring Steve Carell & Channing Tatum.
(… GOOD time!)

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…

Alas, the "MOVING film" made me quite REGRETFUL over my "LOST chances" in CERTAIN circumstances.
(… I am NOT "BLAMING" my ACCIDENT & resulting-INJURIES for my PRESENT UN-happiness!  I'm merely stating that they "played a FACTOR in" said MISERY.)

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…

-- My MMA-(Mixed Martial Arts-)training toward a 'Jiujitsu'-"BLACK belt" & UFC-(Ultimate Fighting Championship-)debut "took a 'six year'-BREAK/-HIATUS … that ("Fingers CROSSED.") MIGHT BE permanent.

-- My LONGTIME (now EX-)girlfriend "lost PATIENCE" with my INFINITE, INCESSANT "steps BACK" in my "PERSONALITY-makeover".

-- My VERY PROMISING/ENCOURAGING job/career--that had me RAPIDLY "climbing the CORPORATE-ladder"--and I "parted ways".


...

"Through THICK & THIN":

…

True frends are those who stick by you not only during good

times, but also struggle with you through hard times. 

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…

During my MOST "TRYING times" (over the past 6.5+ years), 

I've really APPRECIATED those who have "stuck with me"!


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Although I prefer to do MUCH "on my OWN" … to PROVE 

my INDEPENDENCE, I UNDERSTAND that I NEED OTHERS 

for MANY of Life's NECESSITIES: nutrients, care, exercise, 

LOVE, "support".


("SURROUND yourself with GOOD, DEPENDABLE 'team'.")



...

QUESTION: Which is GREATER/STRONGER: PHYSICAL strength or PSYCHOLOGICAL "power"?

…
ANSWER:
It's very CIRCUMSTANTIAL.
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(WARNING:)
Today I realized that I had NOT "excreted 'FECAL-material'"/DUNG in ~107 hours--WHICH, according to my EX-G.I.-"doctor" would deem me OVERDUE for ~2.43 (DREADFUL) ENEMAS!
(… "~2.43 ENEMAS"?!  EEEWWW, seems MESSY!)

So, I PSYCHOLOGICALLY/MENTALLY "TOLD myself" EARLY this morning--BEFORE my nurse "fed me" some "bowel-stimulators"/"milk of magnesia"--to "relieve myself of SOME 'FECAL-BLOCKAGE/WASTE'".
YAY, PSYCHE!

THEN, after I was "fed"--JUST my "FOOD" & "MEDS" ~74 minutes later, I "went #2 AGAIN.
(… THIS TIME I DID have VERY MINUTE/SMALL "MEDICINAL-'HELP'".)

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During ONE of my FOUR DIFFERENT/SEPARATE toilet-"TREKS"/"WALKS" today, I took 73 "STEPS" TO my "JOHN" with ONLY TWO "walker-kicks"--with my eyes UP.
For my "RETURN-TRIP", I took 67 "STEPS"--with ZERO "walker-kicks".
(… YAY!)
((… HOWEVER, my eyes were facing DOWN toward the GROUND for 14 of my 63 STEPS (= ~22.22%).))


...

"NEVER-say-DIE"-attitude!

…
NEVER "give-up" on something you REALLY WANT!
It's DIFFICULT to WAIT.  (SIGH) (Tell me about it!)
But, the (EMOTIONAL) "pain" is even WORSE to REGRET.

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"GOOD things come to those who WAIT."

(… Considering how LONG tasks NOW take me, it's really "UPLIFTING" to have the OPTIMISM & PATIENCE to believe that I WILL--EVENTUALLY--walk AND talk!)

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Today I had a VERY PRODUCTIVE/ENCOURAGING display of my physical-PROGRESS during my LEG-workout at "NeuroFit 360"!
On FOUR SEPARATE occasions, I STOOD UP--UN-assisted & let GO of a horizontal-"SAFETY" bar for three, four, six then EIGHT seconds.

So, WAY to FANTASTICALLY apply the staff's SPECTACULAR advice/tips, A.J.!



...

"You must RESPECT my AU-THOR-IH-TAY!"

…
(--Eric Cartman, 'South Park')


Even though I am "nowhere NEAR" as ATHLETIC as I once WAS, I feel that my "CREATIVITY", "DRIVE" & "DETERMINATION through SEEMINGLY IN-defatiguable 'ODDS'" have actually IMPROVED/INCREASED!


"Shut up, I KNOW what I'm DOING!"
(--Muhammad Ali)

(… I "YELLED" this comment to/at my LEGS as I STRUGGLED to readjust my positioning in my wheelchair during my "UPPER body"-workout.)

…
"Ain't NOBODY talk about JOE FRAZIUH."
(--The GREATEST)
(… They're talkin' about MY FANTASTIC ARMS-display/-performance today!)


…
I am most certainly NOT BLAMING my injurIES for my "LOST respect"!
But, my INabilities to TALK & WALK have made me a bit HESITANT/QUESTIONABLE to "'STAND' MY ground".
I've LONG "VOICED MY OPINION" & expected/RECEIVED the PROPER RESPECT for/of my perspectives!


My mother asked if she could invite my sister's friend to MY house for a dinner-party this weekend.
((… APPARENTLY, (SIGH) my mother FORGOT just HOW UPSET & OFFENDED I was/am when said (POTENTIAL?) guest REPEATEDLY INSULTED MY mom!
… Well, I did NOT!))


"On a LIGHTER note", my "WALK" to my toilet to "STAND" & urinate just now GREATLY "illustrates" my INSTRUCTIONS to my caregiver: He lets me do EVERYTHING ((initiating my "STAND" beside my walker, "WALKING" my 36 "STEPS" TO my "porcelain-throne", "STANDING" to expel URINE into said "john" & "WALKING" the 34 "STEPS" BACK 'a mi cama'), while following me CLOSE ENOUGH to step-in IF something BAD were to "come 'AFOOT'" (I stumbled & OVERLY leaned-BACK upon my return.).))



...

All I NEEDED was some "R & R"!

…

("F.Y.I.": "R & R" = "Rest & Relaxation")

So, I took a WEEK-OFF from my (GREAT) LEG-workouts @ "NeuroFit 360".
My back was VERY/REALLY "aggravated" … due to ALOTTA unpleasant TWISTING & TURNING while sleeping the week before.
Thus, I IGNORED the UNDERSTANDABLE--but very CIRCUMSTANTIAL--instructions of STAFF that I'm NOT ALLOWED to bring-in my MOTORIZED wheelchair.
((… LITTLE did I know that THAT (STUPID) stipulation was ONLY CREATED, because staff did NOT want ME--who's VERY ADVANCED, compared to the at least FOUR OTHER patients who use ELECTRIC-chairs--to get LAZY.))

Anyway, I guess I just needed time to "PROCESS & APPLY" the staff's "TIPS & ADVICE" on how to PROPERLY WEIGHT-SHIFT & "WALK".
TODAY, I had a VERY PRODUCTIVE "WORK-OUT"!
I EVEN did some FANTASTIC AB-exercises that tested my COORDINATION & CONCENTRATION.
(… Granted, TODAY's WORKOUT was only SLIGHTLY shortened--per my nurse's request--as a PRECAUTION for my PAINFUL back.  But, it turns out … that I produce/perform BETTER during my shortER--FRIDAY--workouts, 'cuz of my ON-again/OFF-again "stamina".)

So, ALL-in-ALL, I was QUITE PLEASED with TODAY'S "output".


...

NO MATTER how RIDICULOUS it may SEEM,

…
you've GOTTA …
BELIEVE!


"I like to think that he gives people 'HOPE'."
(--'The Amazing Spiderman 2')


"HOPE", "FAITH". "TRUST", "INTUITION", "GUT-feeling"--
"To EACH his/her OWN".

(… Just have SUMTHIN'!)


I am--by NO MEANS--a RELIGIOUS/THEOLOGIC man, but I DO possess ALOTTA "DRIVE", DETERMINATION % "TRUST in MYSELF"!


I'm STILL … NOT doing my (usually DAILY) 40 DEEP (PRE-shower) squats, 'cuz my nurse … AND my "doctor" … recommended that I "just take it EASY" until my BACK-PAIN is GONE.


HOWEVER, I've "WALKED" to my toilet to "STAND" & URINATE … THREE different/separate TIMES!
((… I did NOT count my "STEPS", 'cuz I was too/so FOCUSED on my (PAIN-LESS/-FREE) BACK-posture.))


I KEEP seeing previews for the new (WRESTLING-)movie, 'Foxcatcher'!
(… I MUST wrestle AGAIN!)
(… I WILL.)


(… In a RELATED story, I HAFTA go see that film!)



...

"'DO' or 'do NOT'. There is NO 'TRY'."

…
Um, I'm gonna HAFTA--REGRETTABLY-, UN-fortunately-DIS-agree, "Jedi-Master Yoda"(--'Star Wars').

…

ALAS, the saying SUCKS! But, perhaps it's kinda TRUE:

…
"No PAIN, no GAIN."

(… The MOMENTARY "suffering" acts as BOTH a "TEST" of my "HURDLING" and a GREAT feeling of ACCOMPLISHMENT … WHEN I "overcome" said "OBSTACLE"!

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My EX-girlfriend--to ME--about my WALKING:
"WHY do you WANT this so 'BAD'?!"
My reply: "''Cuz they (my PESSIMISTIC, STUPID "doctors) said I couldN'T have it!"
(--'Men of Honor')

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…

"If you're I'm) gonna GO,  go ALL-OUT."
"Go BIG, or go HOME."

THIS saying is BASICALLY telling MYSELF to go OUT MORE, & STOP being SHY!

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"GOOD work takes TIME."
("Knock on wood.")
My BACK is SLOWLY yet SURELY feeling BETTER!



...

WHAT a "PICTURE"!

…

“Our goals can only be reached through a vehicle of a plan, 

in which we must fervently believe, and upon which we must 

vigorously act. There is no other route to success.” 

--Pablo Picasso





...

"Just 'JACK'!"

… --'Will & Grace'

As the topic indicates, I doN'T have MUCH about which to type.

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THANKFULLY, ("Knock on wood.") my back is feeling MUCH BETTER.
Granted, I AM taking some ANTI-pain MEDICATION.
(… So, I'm VENTURING to say that THAT's playing some kinda (MAJOR) role!)

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Despite my (TEMPORARY?) LACK OF back-pain, my MAIN-nurse recommended I NOT risk my health, & SKIP my gym-trip today.
(… I'll LIKELY return to my LEG-gym … NEXT Friday.)

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So, I tend to grow QUITE LONELY living in my BIG HOUSE--VIRTUALLY alone!
To "COMBAT" this "ALONE-time", a GOOD buddy from high school came over--uninvited but WELCOME!
We played ALOTTA "'beirut'" and shared stories & laughs.

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My "martial arts"-Professor emailed ME this afternoon.
YAY!
HE RECOMMENDED that I CO-teach class more FREQUENTLY!
I, EXCITEDLY, agreed to said SUGGESTION!


...

Take a NEW/DIFFERENT "angle"/approach.

…

"Albert Einstein once said, ''We can't change the WORLD, without FIRST changing our THINKING.''"
(--'The Amazing Spider-Man 2')

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…

"It's not GROOVY to be 'INSANE'."
(--'Inherent Vice')

(… I KNOW from EXPERIENCE.)

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…

(I'm RELAXING as I lie in bed.)
"I NEVER 'give-up'!
I'm merely TRANSCENDING the situation."
(--Dr. Sheldon Cooper, 'The Big Bang Theory')

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…

Seeing as my EXCRUCIATING back-PAIN is LIKELY due to a SIGNIFICANT … MUSCLE-strain, I HAFTA reevaluate WHAT I can do & HOW to do it.

As a "Biomedical Engineering"-graduate from an ESTEEMED "Ivy League" university (Penn) (… NOT Penn STATE), I should have NO PROBLEMS advising ALTERNATIVE-strategies for MOST of my DAILY-activities.

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…

In addition to my SEVERE back-pain yesterday, it turns out that the medical-staff concluded that I "have PNEUMONIA".
(… I COMPLETELY DIS-agree with this VERY IGNORANT conclusion.)
(… Upon my return HOME yesterday, MY nursing-employEE explained to me that the hospital's NEW diagnosis & medicine-prescriptions are "JUST PREVENTATIVES for 'asphyxiation-/aspiration-pneumonia'/)

OOOHHH!

...

Statistically speaking, "they can't ALL be 'Winners'."

…

From ~9:00 am to ~5:00 pm (~1/3 of a day) TODAY, I was at the HOSPITAL
(  : (  )
for SEVERE lower back-PAIN!

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…

My "posterior-'TRUNK'" WAS so, so, SSSOOO AGONIZINGLY-painful that I could NOT "WALK" to my toilet to urinate, sit down in EITHER of my wheelchairs or EVEN bend my "TRUNK"!

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…

So, I lied down--on a VERY UNCOMFORTABLE table for TWO X-rays--ONE of my lower back & ONE of my chest/lungs.
(… The DUMBASS-nurse said to me:
"I SWEAR that you (ME) are ONLY written-up for ONE (X-ray)."
…
Well, after I yelled "IDIOT" and made a "'CRAZY' twirling RIGHT pointer-finger next to my cranium" hand-gesture, my mom sought out the supervisor of said horribly/ridiculously WRONG ("SORRY excuse for a" SO-CALLED) "nurse".
Needless to say, TWO valedictorians (My mom ALSO finished at the "TOP of her high school class".) are WAY SMARTER than "Nurse" ''STU'PIDO''!
AAARRRGGGHHH!
UUUGGGHHH!

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…

UNFORTUNATELY, said FORGETFUL Nurse-"BITCH" was MY "nurse" for my ALLOTTED hospital-visit.
She CONSTANTLY/REPEATEDLY … IGNORED my "BREATHING machine"-alarm, 'cuz she set up my "heart rate"-monitor IN-correctlly.

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…

As a refreshing CONTRADICTION to said "UNDERLING"'s EMBARRASSING "WRONG-ness", the DOCTOR recognized how LONG/MUCH I had "TOLERATED" the "nurse"'s STUPIDITY & RUDENESS and let me leave (RELATIVELY) "EARLY" … after ~SEVEN HOURS there!
(… He actually UNNECESSARILY apologized for her "DUMBASSedry")

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…

It turns out that--according to more RESPECTED members of the hospital-staff--my back-PAIN is JUST a strained/injured muscle and NOT a "pinched NERVE" or "broken BONE"!
WHEW!

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ALAS,
ONE of my NEW meds--PLUS my LONG, FRUSTRATING, EXHAUSTING day--instigates/promotes/invokes/causes SLEEP.




P.S. Is it WRONG to state that I HOPE/KNOW that "PITIFUL  EXCUSE for a 'NURSE' gets FIRED for her LACK OF nursing-, medical- AND/OR people-skills?!


...

PROS & CONS

…
of my "SUPER-SENSITIVE hearing"(--my mom):


PROS

-- I hear my employEEs talking about ME … from a DIFFERENT room.
-- I almost NEVER miss any INSTRUCTIONS/DIRECTIONS.
(… I'll ask for them to be REPEATED merely to CLARIFY.)
-- I DIS-like ANY of my television sets' volume being TOO LOUD.
(… I have six TVs.)
-- There's NO/ZERO/ZILCH/'NADA' "GOSSIP"!
((… 1. I am NOT an adolescent GIRL.
2. "NOT up in HERE!"(--'The Hangover'))
-- By ALWAYS hearing my "caregiver"'s TV--when it's ON, I KNOW when he left a television ON & left the room.  Thus, I can SEMI-regulate my ELECTRICITY-bill.


CONS

-- My--INCIDENTAL--"EAVESDROPPING"does NOT allow for much PRIVACY.
-- My EXTREME SELF-confidence--along with OTHERS' TENDENCY to be CARELESS/IR-responsible/STUPID--occasionally leads to MIS-understandings/MIS-communications/MIS-interpretations.
-- Y'all would THINK that a lowER volume would allow for fewER quotes memorized … BY ME.
(… Yet, "QUALITY-quote memorization" is just what I DO!  … It's how my "ANOMALOUS" brain "operates".)
-- I USUALLY like the TV ON--in the "background"--WHILE I research RANDOM "whatnot" on my laptop.


(… YET ANOTHER "POSITIVE-aspect" is that the "PRO"s outnumber the "CON"s.)

(… WAIT!  I've GOTTA check my CALCULATIONS.
HHHMMM,
5 > 4 )
(… Ergo, EUREKA!)


…

I LOVE/NEED visitors/guests!

…

I'm a VERY SOCIAL-person!
(… That's PARTIALLY why it's SO FRUSTRATING that I--CURRENTLY/TEMPORARILY--canNOT COGENTLY/UNDERSTANDABLY speak/"VOICE my opinion".)

Yes, I DO utilize my "letter-board", "hand-gestures"/"facial expressions" & emails.  But, MUCH too OFTEN these "secondary"/"INDIRECT" forms of "COMMUNICATION" are MIS-interpreted AND/OR MIS-understood.

HOWEVER, FACE-to-FACE" "conversations" allow QUICK & EASY "sorting-out" of any/ALL MIS-"communications".
(… WHEW!)

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…

With-OUT other people (… NON-employees) to ENTERTAIN/"shoot the (proverbial) 'SHIT' with", I MIGHT "drift" into a "TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE, NO-good, VERY BAD" "realm" of SELF-pity & SORROW.

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…

In order to NOT be TOTALLY/COMPLETELY biased in my SELF-analysis of my PROGRESS in/through my "RECOVERY", I NEED TO "show off" for/to OTHERS … PARTICULARLY those who have NOT witnessed my "WORK" in AWHILE … like some of my guests tonight.

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…

I had a GREAT time with THREE of MY friends: playing a board-game, watching television &just "shootin' the (PROVERBIAL) 'SHIT'"!

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…

I FELL … ASLEEP EAR;Y/


...

… DAMN … ME for "jumping to conclusions"!

…

UN-beknownst to ME, my thermostat changes/varies ON ITS OWN--according to the OVERALL temperature of the room.
So, although I never OPENLY accused one of my "NIGHT-caregivers" of any WRONG-doing, I still THOUGHT he was "PLAYING with" my ROOM-temperature.
(… SHAME on ME!)

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"NEVER assume, because that makes an 'ASS' out of 'U' ('YOU') & 'ME'."

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Regarding my CONSTANT-warnings to
"NOT 'judge' a 'BOOK' by its 'COVER'":

I REALLY should "PRACTICE what I PREACH".

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I really SHOULD go to sleep relatively EARLY tonight, as I 'm having NUMEROUS dinner-guests tomorrow night.
PLUS, I'm going to view KIDS' Karate-class EARLY in the morning (at ~9:00 am).

''C'est la vie.''
(--French for ''That's life.'')



...

I'm EXHAUSTED!

…
I doN'T know WHY!
(?!)

(… Actually, I DO know WHY.)
(… SSSHHH!)

My (UN-reliable, IR-responsible) EVENING-nurse was
an "HOUR & FIFTEEN MINUTES"+ LATE.
She didN'T even CALL to explain her TARDINESS.
I had to call HER!

Ergo, I spent an EXTRA 75+ MINUTES sitting--with a VERY SORE BACK--in my CHAIR.

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Also, my (very NOT-smart) night-caregiver CHANGED the TEMPERATURE-settting--with-OUT MY permission--from my/the NORMAL/USUAL temp. of 75 degrees … down to a FREEZING 63 degrees!
(… I checked this morning, after I awoke--TIRED, sneezing & with a "RUNNY=nose".)

(… SIGH!  I'm AFRAID I'm NOW getting SICK, 'cuz I'm CONSTANTLY COLD!)

(… U am LIVID!)


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