...
-- TOUGH-times are like physical exercise:
You may not like it, while you are doing it. But, tomorrow you'll be stronger because of it.
... In OTHER-words: ... "The 'JUICE' is WORTH the 'SQUEEZE'."
... Actually, ... NOW, ... I "TREASURE" exercise even-MORE, 'cuz I "SEE"/experience slightly-MORE "PHYSICAL/CARDIOVASCULAR-benefitS".
(... Ya see, I WUZ in TREMENDOUS athletic-shape PRE-accident, ... 'cuz of my EIGHT-YEARS of ORGANIZED-/ COMPETITIVE-WRESTLING, ~15.6+ YEARS of "Martial Arts"-TRAINING & tip-TOP NUTRITIONAL-discipline. ... NOW, I have a "LOWER STARTING-base" from which to COMPARE/CONTRAST.)
... If I doN'T HAVE enough-TIME for an OBLIGATION or VOLUNTEERED-task, I REARRANGE my activitIES , & MAKKE-it.
E.g. I HAFTA SAFELY-, RESPONSIBLY-, LOGICALLY-REHABILITATE my "AILING-body".
I HAFTA WISELY- & EFFICIENTLY-MANAGE MY "HEALTH-CARE" BUSINESS.
I CHOOSE-to CONTINUE my VOLUNTARY-services as a WELL-respected "Martial Arts"-INSTRUCTOR/-'Sensei'.
I CHOOSE-to PROVIDE a rent-FREE domicile for a GOOD-buddy, ... who DOUBLE as MY "SOCIAL-Director".
I CHOOSE-to "undertake" THREE-DAYS of "SPEECH-Therapy" per-week ... AND FOUR-DAYS of "PHYSICAL-workouts" per-week.
I CHOOSE-to do ADDITIONAL PHYSICAL-exercises ... in my free-time ... at HOME.
-- I DESPERATELY-SEEK a MENTAL- & PHYSICAL- & PSYCHOLOGICAL- ... & ROMANTIC-'UTOPIA'.
... 'Utopia' --> book by Thomas More
... HOWEVER, after FURTHER-/GREATER-thought, I realized that 'utopia' translates in/from Greek as ... 'NO-place' ... indicating its FICTIONALITY.
... Since AMERICANS are--generally--kinda-STUPID, they/we MISTAKENLY-translate IT as 'EU-topia', meaning 'GOOD-place'. ... But, this (English) MIS-interprettion
does-NOT account-for the IMPLAUSIBILITY of ALL the collective-"ASPECTS" of said-"STATE".
... Still, ... I can/MUST STRIVE-for ... as-CLOSE-as POSSIBLE to ... MY "BLISS".
-- 'WUNDERBA!'
My mom & "BROHIEM" (ACTUAL-sibling) made-it from Turkey ... SAFELY!
...
Thursday, June 30, 2016
Wednesday, June 29, 2016
My "INTERNAL-CLOCK" is "on MILITARY-time".*
... And, my stomach's "WINNING".
(WARNING) So, UN-fortunately, "my-SLUMBERS" were "RUDELY-interrupred by a sudden-URGE to URINATE" ... at ~OH FOUR HUNDRED hours ... EST. (... = ~4:00 am ... EST)
... Yet, I ALSO-felt my stomach's SLIGHT-"rumbling".
... So, I "buzzed-for" my Caregiver ... to get my "toilet-chair" ... to "go #2"**.
("'Tis better SAFE than SORRY.")
... Well, sure-enough, I was CORRECT ... about my "bodily-waste NUMBERING".
(... HHHMMM, TWO "LARGE SEMI-SOLID" "DUMPS" in ~13.5 HOURS ... with-OUT ANY "'FOOD'-stimulation"? ... Should I ... WORRY?! ... HHHMMM, NAW! ... 'Tis JUST a "SIGN" that my body's--FINALLY--STARTING-to RE-acclimate with TYPICAL "digestive-procedures".)
-- THANKFULLY, I DID-receive an email-CONFIRMATION from my brother ... in TURKEY ... that everything's ALRIGHT!
(... WHEW!)***
... My brother & mother fly-FROM 'Turkiye' (pronounced 'TOOR-kee-YEH', Doc, ... You can-DO this! I BELIEVE-in YOU!) Thursday-night.
-- (AUDIBLE-sigh) I KNEW I MATURED, ... when I REALIZED ... EVERY-situation does-NOT "NEED a REACTION". ... Sometimes, you just HAFTA LEAVE people to-DO the "LAME-'SHIT'" they DO.
... This "leave-ALONE, & let-BE"-tactic VERY-MUCH goes-AGAINST my (USUAL) PRO-active approach to ... EVERYTHING!
-- "... NOBODY 'knows' 'HERE'. ... They ONLY-'know' 'THERE'."
(--'That Awkward Moment')
((... DoN'T make me LAUGH-AT your CLEARLY-"BULLSHIT"-EMPATHY! Very-FEW "academic-/mental-/ psychologic-'STUDS'" have "SUCCESSFULLY-OVERCOME/-CONQUERED" a "Traumatic Brain-Injury" (maybe ... SEVEN ... people) ... EVER. ... So, I certainly-APPRECIATE SYMpathy. But, doN'T PRETEND to-"KNOW how [I] FEEL"!
-- "Sometimes I think-to MYSELF:
'HHHMMM, ... do I REALLY-want a BEER?'
...
Then, I REMEMBER ... there's a SUPER-volcano under Yellowstone National Park that is 40,000 years OVERDUE. ... When it ERUPTS, it could POTENTIALLY-COVER MOST-of North America in ASH, ... & -CREATE a "VOLCANIC-winter" ... that KILLS HALF the WORLD's population.
... And, I'm like, ... 'Hellz-YEAH, I WANT a BEER!'"
(--'El DUDE-arino', 'The Big Lebowski')
(... I MAINLY SEEK-to CALM my ever-WORRYING NERVES.)
-- You would NEVER-INVITE a THIEF ... INTO your house. ... So, WHY would you ALLOW thoughts that "STEAL" your JOY ... to make themselves "at-HOME" ... in your MIND?!
-- MY INNER-soliluquoy:
"'Your-PEACE' is MORE-important than 'driving YOURSELF CRAZY' TRYING-to UNDERSTAND WHY something-HAPPENED the way it DID.
.. 'Let it GO'."
(--Mandy Hale)
(... I AUDIBLY-sigh.)
"Life is too-SHORT to WORRY-about STUPID-things. ... Have-FUN. ... 'FALL-in LOVE.' ... Regret-NOTHING. ... DoN'T let PEOPLE 'bring you DOWN'--EMOTIONALLY/PSYCHOLOGICALLY."***
(... I possess MUCH-sympathy. But, I'm actually-GLAD that I experience LITTLE-to-NO EMPATHY for DIMwitted-people ... with STUPID-problems.)
-- "The person who follows the crowd will usually go no further than the crowd. The person who walks alone is likely to find himself in places no one has ever seen before."
(--Albert Einstein)
(... DARE to be-DIFFERNT! ... I've LONG-been PROUD-of ALL MY-QUIRKS & -IDIOSYNCRASIES! ... I've "HARNESSED their 'POWER'" & "MANIPULATED 'em into VIRTUES".)
-- I watched 'Vision Quest'--AGAIN--to FURTHER-"CEMENT" my-belief that 'tis MY-BIOGRAPHY.
(... A WRESTLING- & FITNESS-"KNOW-it-ALL" "falls-FOR" an oldER, ARTISTIC-woman whoM he sees EVERYDAY)
-- I'm goin' OUT to a BIG DANCE-PARTY ... CO-hosted by my housemate ... ~45 minutes AWAY.
... I LEFT my home at ~6:15 pm ... & stayed there at the SURPRISINGLY-FUN "DANCE-off" 'til ~9:45 pm.
... I was PLEASANTLY-surprised that ...
1) I "fell-ASLEEP" ... IN my wheelchair ... during the drive-DOWN/-OVER there!
2) I actually had-FUN!
3) I conversed--AFTERWARDS--with an ATTRACTIVE-lady!
KEY
* = NO, I am NOT-pregnant with some "bastard-child" of a soldier! (... THAT'd be an AWFUL "dramatic-INTERPRETATION" of the book/film ''General's Daughter''!)
** = Whenever I FEEL I NEED-to "EXCRETE--rather-than SECRETE--my 'bodily-WASTE'", I request-to "SIT-in" my "toilet-CHAIR" in my "transfer-TO" my "porcelain-THRONE", ... 'cuz my anal-SPHINCTER TENDS-to TIGHTEN-up, as I "WALK".
*** = ALWAYS a MASTER of the FAKES & DECOYS, I USED-to CONSTANTLY-bait OPPONENTS in my "Martial Arts"-SPARRING & "high school"/-college-WRESTLING with a (SSSEEMINGLY) SUB-standard DEFENSE. ... Then, I'd QUICKLY-"unleash" a DEVASTATING-COUNTER.
...
(WARNING) So, UN-fortunately, "my-SLUMBERS" were "RUDELY-interrupred by a sudden-URGE to URINATE" ... at ~OH FOUR HUNDRED hours ... EST. (... = ~4:00 am ... EST)
... Yet, I ALSO-felt my stomach's SLIGHT-"rumbling".
... So, I "buzzed-for" my Caregiver ... to get my "toilet-chair" ... to "go #2"**.
("'Tis better SAFE than SORRY.")
... Well, sure-enough, I was CORRECT ... about my "bodily-waste NUMBERING".
(... HHHMMM, TWO "LARGE SEMI-SOLID" "DUMPS" in ~13.5 HOURS ... with-OUT ANY "'FOOD'-stimulation"? ... Should I ... WORRY?! ... HHHMMM, NAW! ... 'Tis JUST a "SIGN" that my body's--FINALLY--STARTING-to RE-acclimate with TYPICAL "digestive-procedures".)
-- THANKFULLY, I DID-receive an email-CONFIRMATION from my brother ... in TURKEY ... that everything's ALRIGHT!
(... WHEW!)***
... My brother & mother fly-FROM 'Turkiye' (pronounced 'TOOR-kee-YEH', Doc, ... You can-DO this! I BELIEVE-in YOU!) Thursday-night.
-- (AUDIBLE-sigh) I KNEW I MATURED, ... when I REALIZED ... EVERY-situation does-NOT "NEED a REACTION". ... Sometimes, you just HAFTA LEAVE people to-DO the "LAME-'SHIT'" they DO.
... This "leave-ALONE, & let-BE"-tactic VERY-MUCH goes-AGAINST my (USUAL) PRO-active approach to ... EVERYTHING!
-- "... NOBODY 'knows' 'HERE'. ... They ONLY-'know' 'THERE'."
(--'That Awkward Moment')
((... DoN'T make me LAUGH-AT your CLEARLY-"BULLSHIT"-EMPATHY! Very-FEW "academic-/mental-/ psychologic-'STUDS'" have "SUCCESSFULLY-OVERCOME/-CONQUERED" a "Traumatic Brain-Injury" (maybe ... SEVEN ... people) ... EVER. ... So, I certainly-APPRECIATE SYMpathy. But, doN'T PRETEND to-"KNOW how [I] FEEL"!
-- "Sometimes I think-to MYSELF:
'HHHMMM, ... do I REALLY-want a BEER?'
...
Then, I REMEMBER ... there's a SUPER-volcano under Yellowstone National Park that is 40,000 years OVERDUE. ... When it ERUPTS, it could POTENTIALLY-COVER MOST-of North America in ASH, ... & -CREATE a "VOLCANIC-winter" ... that KILLS HALF the WORLD's population.
... And, I'm like, ... 'Hellz-YEAH, I WANT a BEER!'"
(--'El DUDE-arino', 'The Big Lebowski')
(... I MAINLY SEEK-to CALM my ever-WORRYING NERVES.)
-- You would NEVER-INVITE a THIEF ... INTO your house. ... So, WHY would you ALLOW thoughts that "STEAL" your JOY ... to make themselves "at-HOME" ... in your MIND?!
-- MY INNER-soliluquoy:
"'Your-PEACE' is MORE-important than 'driving YOURSELF CRAZY' TRYING-to UNDERSTAND WHY something-HAPPENED the way it DID.
.. 'Let it GO'."
(--Mandy Hale)
(... I AUDIBLY-sigh.)
"Life is too-SHORT to WORRY-about STUPID-things. ... Have-FUN. ... 'FALL-in LOVE.' ... Regret-NOTHING. ... DoN'T let PEOPLE 'bring you DOWN'--EMOTIONALLY/PSYCHOLOGICALLY."***
(... I possess MUCH-sympathy. But, I'm actually-GLAD that I experience LITTLE-to-NO EMPATHY for DIMwitted-people ... with STUPID-problems.)
-- "The person who follows the crowd will usually go no further than the crowd. The person who walks alone is likely to find himself in places no one has ever seen before."
(--Albert Einstein)
(... DARE to be-DIFFERNT! ... I've LONG-been PROUD-of ALL MY-QUIRKS & -IDIOSYNCRASIES! ... I've "HARNESSED their 'POWER'" & "MANIPULATED 'em into VIRTUES".)
-- I watched 'Vision Quest'--AGAIN--to FURTHER-"CEMENT" my-belief that 'tis MY-BIOGRAPHY.
(... A WRESTLING- & FITNESS-"KNOW-it-ALL" "falls-FOR" an oldER, ARTISTIC-woman whoM he sees EVERYDAY)
-- I'm goin' OUT to a BIG DANCE-PARTY ... CO-hosted by my housemate ... ~45 minutes AWAY.
... I LEFT my home at ~6:15 pm ... & stayed there at the SURPRISINGLY-FUN "DANCE-off" 'til ~9:45 pm.
... I was PLEASANTLY-surprised that ...
1) I "fell-ASLEEP" ... IN my wheelchair ... during the drive-DOWN/-OVER there!
2) I actually had-FUN!
3) I conversed--AFTERWARDS--with an ATTRACTIVE-lady!
KEY
* = NO, I am NOT-pregnant with some "bastard-child" of a soldier! (... THAT'd be an AWFUL "dramatic-INTERPRETATION" of the book/film ''General's Daughter''!)
** = Whenever I FEEL I NEED-to "EXCRETE--rather-than SECRETE--my 'bodily-WASTE'", I request-to "SIT-in" my "toilet-CHAIR" in my "transfer-TO" my "porcelain-THRONE", ... 'cuz my anal-SPHINCTER TENDS-to TIGHTEN-up, as I "WALK".
*** = ALWAYS a MASTER of the FAKES & DECOYS, I USED-to CONSTANTLY-bait OPPONENTS in my "Martial Arts"-SPARRING & "high school"/-college-WRESTLING with a (SSSEEMINGLY) SUB-standard DEFENSE. ... Then, I'd QUICKLY-"unleash" a DEVASTATING-COUNTER.
...
Tuesday, June 28, 2016
"I'm NOT as 'help-LESS' as people THINK."
... --Charlie Eppes, 'NUMB3RS')
(... JUST-'cuz I have a "Traumatic Brain-Injury" AND a "SPEAKING-machine"... doesN'T MEAN that I'm NOT-smartER than MOST-people & NOT-athletic.)
(... On SECOND-thought, I'd MUCH RATHER-be UNDER-ESTIMATED ... than OVER-ESTIMATED ... for the "element of SURPRISE".)
(... JUST-'cuz I have a "Traumatic Brain-Injury" AND a "SPEAKING-machine"... doesN'T MEAN that I'm NOT-smartER than MOST-people & NOT-athletic.)
(... On SECOND-thought, I'd MUCH RATHER-be UNDER-ESTIMATED ... than OVER-ESTIMATED ... for the "element of SURPRISE".)
-- "The EARLY-bird GETS 'the WORM'."
... After I fell-ASLEEP relatively-EARLY ... for ME*, I AWOKE-EARLY ... for ME**. ... NOT-tired NOR-sleepy at-ALL, I RE-read my CURRENT-chapter of 'Accounting/Finance'.
(... I THINK/BELIEEEVE TONIGHT is my LAST-class. ... AGAIN, ... CONTRARY-to my EXEMPLARY/SUPERLATIVE "ACADEMIC-history", I JUST-wanna "PASS". ... I ONLY-sought a "SOCIAL-forum".)
-- ALWAYS read--CAREFULLY--ALL instructions when conducting IMPORTANT procedures!
** = at ~5:30 am ... EST
*** = On WEEKDAYS I get FIVE-"feedings". ... PLUS, I eat EGGS--via MOUTH--at-LEAST TWICE-a-week during "SPEECH". On WEEKENDS I have LESS "energetic-expenditure". Therefore, I REQUIRE LESS "caloric-INTAKE".
(... I.e. After my car-accident--ONLY ~EIGHT years ago, the MEDICAL-directions for my DOCTOR said
"Perform 'CIRCULAR-INCISION'."
... But, HE read, "Perform 'CIRCUMCISION'."
... Sooo, SURE-enough, ... OUCH! ... DOUBLE-ouch!)
(... You'd THINK he'd NOTICE!)
((... MORAL: LOOK/OBSERVE & DEDUCE/CONCLUDE BEFORE BEGINNING a new-tactic!)
-- I had a PRODUCTIVE, "BENDY" "UPPER body"-workout.
-- I ABHOR when people "put words in my mouth"!
JUST-'cuz I doN'T really-TALK that much does-NOT MEAN that I doN'T have THOUGHTS & OPINIONS!
((... I.e. (WARNING) Today during ONE of my FIVE weekday-"feedings"***, I pointed-to my stomach then gave a "thumbs-DOWN"-gesture, ... indicating that 'tis UNFORTUNATE that I've had NO-feeling(S) to "EVACUATE my BOWELS" in a couple days. My EVENING-Nurse MIS-understood my signal & said:
"NO, A.J., I can-NOT give you any 'bowel-STIMULANT, 'cuz you have CLASS tonight!"
... I--IMMEDIATELY--CORRECTED her:
"I did-NOT ASK-for any laxative! I was MERELY-stating that the fact that I'm NOT-"feeling" ANY-"URGE" is ... UN-fortunate."
-- I ABHOR when people "put words in my mouth"!
JUST-'cuz I doN'T really-TALK that much does-NOT MEAN that I doN'T have THOUGHTS & OPINIONS!
((... I.e. (WARNING) Today during ONE of my FIVE weekday-"feedings"***, I pointed-to my stomach then gave a "thumbs-DOWN"-gesture, ... indicating that 'tis UNFORTUNATE that I've had NO-feeling(S) to "EVACUATE my BOWELS" in a couple days. My EVENING-Nurse MIS-understood my signal & said:
"NO, A.J., I can-NOT give you any 'bowel-STIMULANT, 'cuz you have CLASS tonight!"
... I--IMMEDIATELY--CORRECTED her:
"I did-NOT ASK-for any laxative! I was MERELY-stating that the fact that I'm NOT-"feeling" ANY-"URGE" is ... UN-fortunate."
... As-if by SOME-KIND of "biological-/excretory-CALL", I "let-LOOSE" a "LARGE. SEMI-solid" "FECAL-MONSTROSITY" ... ~"half an hour" later.
-- I "SURVIVED" my LAST CLASS of
'FINP 5001 -- Accounting & Finance Foundations'!
(... Granted, I'm NOT-GONNA get the grade I'm USED-to ('A'). But, I JUST sought-to PASS ... & MEET-people!
(... #1 = CHECK. #2 = SEMI-CHECK. ... The STUDENTS were ... ANTI-social.)
... In-HONOR-of tonight's being my LAST-class, I made a JOKE--to my teacher. ... He was handing-out COOKIES, ... 'cuz it was the LAST-class.
... I "said"/TYPED:
"Since everyone SEEMS-to be becoming-ENERGIZED by your COOKIES, I'm requesting that you LIQUIFY one."
(... I pointed-down at/to my TUBE.)
'FINP 5001 -- Accounting & Finance Foundations'!
(... Granted, I'm NOT-GONNA get the grade I'm USED-to ('A'). But, I JUST sought-to PASS ... & MEET-people!
(... #1 = CHECK. #2 = SEMI-CHECK. ... The STUDENTS were ... ANTI-social.)
... In-HONOR-of tonight's being my LAST-class, I made a JOKE--to my teacher. ... He was handing-out COOKIES, ... 'cuz it was the LAST-class.
... I "said"/TYPED:
"Since everyone SEEMS-to be becoming-ENERGIZED by your COOKIES, I'm requesting that you LIQUIFY one."
(... I pointed-down at/to my TUBE.)
-- Since MY DAILY-events are (USUALLY) SOMEWHAT UN-eventful, I PREFER-to BLOG-for COMEDY/ENTERTAINMENT.
(... AND, any/all SIGNIFICANT-events)
KEY
* = at ~11:30 pm ... EST
*** = On WEEKDAYS I get FIVE-"feedings". ... PLUS, I eat EGGS--via MOUTH--at-LEAST TWICE-a-week during "SPEECH". On WEEKENDS I have LESS "energetic-expenditure". Therefore, I REQUIRE LESS "caloric-INTAKE".
...
Monday, June 27, 2016
"LOL!"?
... I TRY-to "Laugh Out-Loud".
... But, 'tis DIFFICULT. ... I CAN/COULD! 'Tis just ... that EVERYTHING isN'T as FUNNY as PRE-accident. ... I know-NOT WHY!
... I am--by NO-means--a "DOWNER"! Everything just SEEMS-to BE ... MORE-MELLOW & LESS-CELEBRATORY since MY-CATASTROPHE.
-- SSSHHH! I FAKED my TWO-comas ... AND my CURRENT "VOCAL nerve"-issues. ... I have-NOT CONSISTENTLY/CONTINUOUSLY spoken-COGENTLY/-UNDERSTANDABLY for ... ~2,913 days.
WHY?!
I am SEEKING-to BETTER-appreciate the INTRICACIES & SUBTLE-"BELLOWING"* ... of a WHISPER.
... My SPEECH-Therapist called--at ... 1:23 pm ... to say:
"[She]'ll be [HERE] in ABOUT 15 minutes. (AUDIBLE-sigh) Traffic's real-BAD."
(... DESPITE my being ~37 yards away ... in a DIFFERENT-room ... BEHIND a CLOSED-door ... & NOT-holding the phone-earpiece, I HEARD the FULL-message.)
... ME--to y'ALL: "I am NOT-CRAZY! ... MY-'REALITY' ... is just-DIFFERENT from 'YOURS'."
-- Live every moment.
Laugh ... Long ... every day.
Love beyond words.
"Lay Low."
(... I interpret THAT as "Be SLICK/SURREPTITIOUS.")
-- "I LIKE-to BELIEVE ... that 'RECOVERY' is ALWAYS-POSSIBLE."
(--'Halloween H2O: 20 Years Later')
... For ME, 'tis NOT "LIKE-to" ... but "HAVE-to".
... I am NOT-sure of the EXACT-statistics. But, I'd VENTURE-to say ... that ~21% of PHYSICAL-feats/-accomplishments actually START ... PSYCHOLOGICALLY.
... Ergo, the FIRST (METAPHORIC) "step" in MY "'WALKING & SPEAKING'-RECOVERY" occurs in my MIND.
-- As I sit here in my dining room, I took a MINOR-break from READING the next 'FINANCE'-chapter for class ... to do my "SPEECH"-homework.
... I had-to devise a "TONGUE-TWISTER" for the letter 'F'.
... So, I DID ... in ~2 minutes & 12 seconds.
(... THAT's EXACTLY 2.2 minutes.)
"Forty-Five Frenetic Flies Flew Far-From Fifty-Four Frolicking-Flamingos."
-- "I BELEIVE-in INTUITIONS & INSPIRATIONS.
... I--SOMETIMES--feel that I am RIGHT.
...
I do-NOT KNOW that I am."
(--Albert Einstein)
-- UUUGGGHHH! How DISCOURAGING!
... My SORE/AILING LEFT-hip "let me DOWN" during my workout at 'NeuroFit 360'. (... : ( )(... RELAX, ... A.J.! ... 'Twas nothing-SERIOUS! SAID-"hip" just-PREVENTED me from "DOING" a "COUPLE"/"TWO" exercises.
... "But, it's the PRINCIPLE!"--PRE-accident ME)
... ALSO, there were BIG MIS-communications with/between a FRIEND & me, my NURSE & me ... AND "my LEFT HIP-nerves & me ... about "TIMING".
KEY
* = With my PLETHORA of ASSORTED NERVE-issues, my HEARING has actually SIGNIFICANTLY-IMPROVED!
...
... But, 'tis DIFFICULT. ... I CAN/COULD! 'Tis just ... that EVERYTHING isN'T as FUNNY as PRE-accident. ... I know-NOT WHY!
... I am--by NO-means--a "DOWNER"! Everything just SEEMS-to BE ... MORE-MELLOW & LESS-CELEBRATORY since MY-CATASTROPHE.
-- SSSHHH! I FAKED my TWO-comas ... AND my CURRENT "VOCAL nerve"-issues. ... I have-NOT CONSISTENTLY/CONTINUOUSLY spoken-COGENTLY/-UNDERSTANDABLY for ... ~2,913 days.
WHY?!
I am SEEKING-to BETTER-appreciate the INTRICACIES & SUBTLE-"BELLOWING"* ... of a WHISPER.
... My SPEECH-Therapist called--at ... 1:23 pm ... to say:
"[She]'ll be [HERE] in ABOUT 15 minutes. (AUDIBLE-sigh) Traffic's real-BAD."
(... DESPITE my being ~37 yards away ... in a DIFFERENT-room ... BEHIND a CLOSED-door ... & NOT-holding the phone-earpiece, I HEARD the FULL-message.)
... ME--to y'ALL: "I am NOT-CRAZY! ... MY-'REALITY' ... is just-DIFFERENT from 'YOURS'."
-- Live every moment.
Laugh ... Long ... every day.
Love beyond words.
"Lay Low."
(... I interpret THAT as "Be SLICK/SURREPTITIOUS.")
-- "I LIKE-to BELIEVE ... that 'RECOVERY' is ALWAYS-POSSIBLE."
(--'Halloween H2O: 20 Years Later')
... For ME, 'tis NOT "LIKE-to" ... but "HAVE-to".
... I am NOT-sure of the EXACT-statistics. But, I'd VENTURE-to say ... that ~21% of PHYSICAL-feats/-accomplishments actually START ... PSYCHOLOGICALLY.
... Ergo, the FIRST (METAPHORIC) "step" in MY "'WALKING & SPEAKING'-RECOVERY" occurs in my MIND.
-- As I sit here in my dining room, I took a MINOR-break from READING the next 'FINANCE'-chapter for class ... to do my "SPEECH"-homework.
... I had-to devise a "TONGUE-TWISTER" for the letter 'F'.
... So, I DID ... in ~2 minutes & 12 seconds.
(... THAT's EXACTLY 2.2 minutes.)
"Forty-Five Frenetic Flies Flew Far-From Fifty-Four Frolicking-Flamingos."
-- "I BELEIVE-in INTUITIONS & INSPIRATIONS.
... I--SOMETIMES--feel that I am RIGHT.
...
I do-NOT KNOW that I am."
(--Albert Einstein)
-- UUUGGGHHH! How DISCOURAGING!
... My SORE/AILING LEFT-hip "let me DOWN" during my workout at 'NeuroFit 360'. (... : ( )(... RELAX, ... A.J.! ... 'Twas nothing-SERIOUS! SAID-"hip" just-PREVENTED me from "DOING" a "COUPLE"/"TWO" exercises.
... "But, it's the PRINCIPLE!"--PRE-accident ME)
... ALSO, there were BIG MIS-communications with/between a FRIEND & me, my NURSE & me ... AND "my LEFT HIP-nerves & me ... about "TIMING".
KEY
* = With my PLETHORA of ASSORTED NERVE-issues, my HEARING has actually SIGNIFICANTLY-IMPROVED!
...
Sunday, June 26, 2016
"It's a 'PROCESS' ... of CONTINUING- ... 'GROWTH'."
... (--Bruce Lee)
-- So, I AWOKE this morning--at 4:36 am ( : ( )--with this POWERFUL-urge to URINATE (DOUBLE : ( ). PLUS, I'd FORGOTTEN what DAY 'twas. ( : (, : (, : ( )
... So, I "buzzed-FOR" my Caregiver ... at this "UNgodly-hour" to "SPOT-me", as I "WALKED" to "ACTIVELY-RELEASE my URINARY-TENSION".
... As is my/the "YOOJ"*, I couldN'T fall-BACK asleep AFTER a "WALK". ... So, I decided-to BLOG. (... Why NOT?!)
(... PLUS, I "put TWO & TWO TOGETHER" that ... SINCE my television was STILL "semi-ON"**, I MUST've fallen-ASLEEP ... DURING a 'SATURDAY Night Live'-rerun.
... AAAHHH, MY UN-wavering POWERS of DEDUCTION!***
-- "Your LIFE does-NOT get-BETTER by chanCe. ... It gets-BETTER by chanGe."
(--Jim Rohm, 'MOTIVATION for SMART-People')
... "'HAPPINESS' is NOT something you POSTPONE for the FUTURE. It IS something you DESIGN for the PRESENT."
(--Jim Rohn)
... "Of course, the FIRST-step is ... to UNDERSTAND 'what brings you HAPPINESS'."
(--Robert Collier)
... "'Live-in' the 'NOW'."
-- PRACTICE "PERSISTENCE".
... The ONLY-way to "REACH/ACCOMPLISH a GOAL" is
... "ONE (METAPHORIC) 'STEP' at-a-time".
... SOMETIMES, you HAFTA "SUCK it UP" for ... OVER 2,941 days. ... But, it WILL-be "WORTH it".
... I am "FAR-from" a "PERFECT-person". ... I make ALOTTA-MISTAKES! But, I REALLY-APPRECIATE those people who "stay-WITH me" ... after KNOWING how I REALLY AM.
... "CHEERS" to ALL the people who JUST-want to "BE themselves", ... & doN'T-CARE about "fitting-IN"!
... MY INTERNAL-/PSYCHOLOGIC-"message"--to MYSELF:
"NOT-everyone ... EXCUSE me! NO-ONE ... will-UNDERSTAND YOUR-'JOURNEY'. ... That's OKAY. You're 'HERE' to 'live YOUR-life' ... NOT to 'make everyone UNDERSTAND'."
-- "Imagine if you suddenly learned that the people, the places, the moments most important to you were not gone, not dead, but worse, had never been. What kind of hell would that be?"
(--Dr. Rosen, 'A Beautiful Mind')
... My "SHITTY" LONG-term memory makes MANY "ASPECTS" of MY-life--pieced-TOGETHER--KINDOF a ... "living-'HELL'". ... I HAFTA-kinda rely-ON others' STORIES for the DETAILS of MY-TALES.
-- DESPITE my rather-TUMULTUOUS RECENT medical-/ neurological-history, I'm actually QUITE "WELL-balanced". I have a chip on BOTH-shoulders.
-- My NeuralPsychoTherapist--to ME: "WHY doN'T you CONTINUE your degree-PURSUIT?! ... You caN'T
'REASON' your way out of this!"
ME: "Why-NOT?! Why caN'T I?!"
DOC: "Because YOUR-MIND is where the problem is in the
first place!"
ME: "So, I LIKE-to 'OVERplay my 'TRAUMATICALLY brain-DAMAGED ... hand' to initiate a more-DRAMATIC reaction of AWE/SURPRISE at MY 'MATHEMATICAL-GIFTS'. There's no point in being nuts if you can't have a little fun. (AUDIBLE-laugh)"
-- In lieu of my REPEATED-frustrationS with my ("LESS-than 'SATISFACTORY'"/SUB-par) NOTE-taker(S), I'm DEFINITELY-gonna ... NOT-continue my "(OPTIONAL) Grad-school TRIAL", & focus-MORE-on my-ENTERTAINMENT.
... "Classes will dull your mind, destroy the potential for authentic creativity."
(--Nash, 'A Beautiful Mind')
-- ME--to ALL my DOUBTING/PESSIMISTIC/SEMI-STUPID EX-doctors who "NAYSAYED" MY
POTENTIAL-/POSSIBLE-IMPROVEMENTS:
"[Y'all] NEED-to believe ... that something EXTRAORDINARY is ... POSSIBLE."
(--Nash, 'A Beautiful Mind')
-- I got "bitch-SLAPPED"--by a GIRL--last night, after I TRIED this PICKUP-line:
"I find you ATTRACTIVE. Your aggressive moves toward me... indicate that you feel the same way. But still, 'RITUAL' requires that we continue with a number of platonic activities... before we have sex. I am proceeding with these activities, but in point of actual-FACT, all I really want to do is have intercourse with you as soon as possible."
... Well, APPARENTLY, she LIKES-it ROUGH, ... 'cuz--on the drive-HOME, I said-to my BUDDY:
"Ya LIKE 'APPLES'? ... Well, I GOT her-NUMBER. How 'ya like 'dem-'APPLES'?!"
-- REGRETTABLY, I BEGIN-to "NOD-OFF", while my NeuralPsychoTherapist" TESTS my COMPETENCE.
She comments: "I'm pretty-SURE that YOU're too-TIRED to give LEGITIMATE-answers."
MY response--to my NPT ("NeuralPsychoTherapist"):
"NOTHING's ever for sure, [Doc]. That's the ONLY SURE- thing I DO-know."
(--IMAGINARY-friend Charles, 'A Beautiful Mind')
-- TODAY, I asked my "WEEKEND-Nurse" a MATH-question ... just for "FUN"*****
... I "presented" THIS mathematic-QUANDARY:
((9 - 3 / (1/3) + 1)) = ?
... Using the "Order of Operations", she SHOULD've gotten ...
1.
(ADMITTEDLY, she had NO-idea.)
-- My housemate--to ME: "You've GOTTA-help me with this-MATH ... for my JOB."
ME: "But, [DUDE]! It's 'SHARK-Week'!"
(--'Step Brothers')
KEY
* = SHORT-/SLANG-for "USUAL"
** = With ALL-of my ... FIVE televisions, one HAS-to "power-ON" BOTH the "TV"- AND "CABLE"-box(ES).
''C'est la vie.''
*** = Also, my laptop INDICATES the TIME AND DAY/DATE. ... So, QUIT "BRAGGING", A.J., you "hemidemisemiquaver"**** of an ... "AMAZEMENT"!
**** = In reading/writing MUSIC, 'tis "1/64 of a note".
***** = "Fun"--for/to ME --> "To EACH his-OWN."
...
-- So, I AWOKE this morning--at 4:36 am ( : ( )--with this POWERFUL-urge to URINATE (DOUBLE : ( ). PLUS, I'd FORGOTTEN what DAY 'twas. ( : (, : (, : ( )
... So, I "buzzed-FOR" my Caregiver ... at this "UNgodly-hour" to "SPOT-me", as I "WALKED" to "ACTIVELY-RELEASE my URINARY-TENSION".
... As is my/the "YOOJ"*, I couldN'T fall-BACK asleep AFTER a "WALK". ... So, I decided-to BLOG. (... Why NOT?!)
(... PLUS, I "put TWO & TWO TOGETHER" that ... SINCE my television was STILL "semi-ON"**, I MUST've fallen-ASLEEP ... DURING a 'SATURDAY Night Live'-rerun.
... AAAHHH, MY UN-wavering POWERS of DEDUCTION!***
-- "Your LIFE does-NOT get-BETTER by chanCe. ... It gets-BETTER by chanGe."
(--Jim Rohm, 'MOTIVATION for SMART-People')
... "'HAPPINESS' is NOT something you POSTPONE for the FUTURE. It IS something you DESIGN for the PRESENT."
(--Jim Rohn)
... "Of course, the FIRST-step is ... to UNDERSTAND 'what brings you HAPPINESS'."
(--Robert Collier)
... "'Live-in' the 'NOW'."
-- PRACTICE "PERSISTENCE".
... The ONLY-way to "REACH/ACCOMPLISH a GOAL" is
... "ONE (METAPHORIC) 'STEP' at-a-time".
... SOMETIMES, you HAFTA "SUCK it UP" for ... OVER 2,941 days. ... But, it WILL-be "WORTH it".
... I am "FAR-from" a "PERFECT-person". ... I make ALOTTA-MISTAKES! But, I REALLY-APPRECIATE those people who "stay-WITH me" ... after KNOWING how I REALLY AM.
... "CHEERS" to ALL the people who JUST-want to "BE themselves", ... & doN'T-CARE about "fitting-IN"!
... MY INTERNAL-/PSYCHOLOGIC-"message"--to MYSELF:
"NOT-everyone ... EXCUSE me! NO-ONE ... will-UNDERSTAND YOUR-'JOURNEY'. ... That's OKAY. You're 'HERE' to 'live YOUR-life' ... NOT to 'make everyone UNDERSTAND'."
-- "Imagine if you suddenly learned that the people, the places, the moments most important to you were not gone, not dead, but worse, had never been. What kind of hell would that be?"
(--Dr. Rosen, 'A Beautiful Mind')
... My "SHITTY" LONG-term memory makes MANY "ASPECTS" of MY-life--pieced-TOGETHER--KINDOF a ... "living-'HELL'". ... I HAFTA-kinda rely-ON others' STORIES for the DETAILS of MY-TALES.
-- DESPITE my rather-TUMULTUOUS RECENT medical-/ neurological-history, I'm actually QUITE "WELL-balanced". I have a chip on BOTH-shoulders.
-- My NeuralPsychoTherapist--to ME: "WHY doN'T you CONTINUE your degree-PURSUIT?! ... You caN'T
'REASON' your way out of this!"
ME: "Why-NOT?! Why caN'T I?!"
DOC: "Because YOUR-MIND is where the problem is in the
first place!"
ME: "So, I LIKE-to 'OVERplay my 'TRAUMATICALLY brain-DAMAGED ... hand' to initiate a more-DRAMATIC reaction of AWE/SURPRISE at MY 'MATHEMATICAL-GIFTS'. There's no point in being nuts if you can't have a little fun. (AUDIBLE-laugh)"
-- In lieu of my REPEATED-frustrationS with my ("LESS-than 'SATISFACTORY'"/SUB-par) NOTE-taker(S), I'm DEFINITELY-gonna ... NOT-continue my "(OPTIONAL) Grad-school TRIAL", & focus-MORE-on my-ENTERTAINMENT.
... "Classes will dull your mind, destroy the potential for authentic creativity."
(--Nash, 'A Beautiful Mind')
-- ME--to ALL my DOUBTING/PESSIMISTIC/SEMI-STUPID EX-doctors who "NAYSAYED" MY
POTENTIAL-/POSSIBLE-IMPROVEMENTS:
"[Y'all] NEED-to believe ... that something EXTRAORDINARY is ... POSSIBLE."
(--Nash, 'A Beautiful Mind')
-- I got "bitch-SLAPPED"--by a GIRL--last night, after I TRIED this PICKUP-line:
"I find you ATTRACTIVE. Your aggressive moves toward me... indicate that you feel the same way. But still, 'RITUAL' requires that we continue with a number of platonic activities... before we have sex. I am proceeding with these activities, but in point of actual-FACT, all I really want to do is have intercourse with you as soon as possible."
... Well, APPARENTLY, she LIKES-it ROUGH, ... 'cuz--on the drive-HOME, I said-to my BUDDY:
"Ya LIKE 'APPLES'? ... Well, I GOT her-NUMBER. How 'ya like 'dem-'APPLES'?!"
-- REGRETTABLY, I BEGIN-to "NOD-OFF", while my NeuralPsychoTherapist" TESTS my COMPETENCE.
She comments: "I'm pretty-SURE that YOU're too-TIRED to give LEGITIMATE-answers."
MY response--to my NPT ("NeuralPsychoTherapist"):
"NOTHING's ever for sure, [Doc]. That's the ONLY SURE- thing I DO-know."
(--IMAGINARY-friend Charles, 'A Beautiful Mind')
-- TODAY, I asked my "WEEKEND-Nurse" a MATH-question ... just for "FUN"*****
... I "presented" THIS mathematic-QUANDARY:
((9 - 3 / (1/3) + 1)) = ?
... Using the "Order of Operations", she SHOULD've gotten ...
1.
(ADMITTEDLY, she had NO-idea.)
-- My housemate--to ME: "You've GOTTA-help me with this-MATH ... for my JOB."
ME: "But, [DUDE]! It's 'SHARK-Week'!"
(--'Step Brothers')
KEY
* = SHORT-/SLANG-for "USUAL"
** = With ALL-of my ... FIVE televisions, one HAS-to "power-ON" BOTH the "TV"- AND "CABLE"-box(ES).
''C'est la vie.''
*** = Also, my laptop INDICATES the TIME AND DAY/DATE. ... So, QUIT "BRAGGING", A.J., you "hemidemisemiquaver"**** of an ... "AMAZEMENT"!
**** = In reading/writing MUSIC, 'tis "1/64 of a note".
***** = "Fun"--for/to ME --> "To EACH his-OWN."
...
Saturday, June 25, 2016
"There MAY-be 'SOMETHING'-THERE ... that wasN'T THERE before."
... (--'Something There'-SONG, 'Beauty & the Beast')
-- I'm goin' OUT tonight (at ~7:30 pm) to "CHILL" with my housemate & a few of his friends.
... I RETURNED-home at ~10:45 pm ... after a WONDERFUL-meeting (I couldN'T "EAT".) with 7 friends.
((... I VOLUNTEERED-to (MENTALLY-) CALCULATE the bill. ... 'Twas $21.94 PER-person ... PLUS-tip ... for SEVEN people.
KEY
* = (I've INCLUDED the JAPANESE-terms for the strikes, 'cuz ... THAT's how WE-"Martial Arts"-INSTRUCTORS "communicate" with/to- each-OTHER:)
"Roundhouse-DEFENSE to Mount"
Belle:
There's something sweet and almost kind
But he was mean and he was coarse and unrefined
And now he's dear and so unsure
I wonder why I didn't see it there before
There's something sweet and almost kind
But he was mean and he was coarse and unrefined
And now he's dear and so unsure
I wonder why I didn't see it there before
Beast:
She glanced this way, I thought I saw
And when we touched she didn't shudder at my paw
No it can't be, I'll just ignore
But then she's never looked at me that way before
She glanced this way, I thought I saw
And when we touched she didn't shudder at my paw
No it can't be, I'll just ignore
But then she's never looked at me that way before
Belle:
New and a bit alarming
Who'd have ever thought that this could be?
True that he's no Prince Charming
But there's something in him that I simply didn't see
New and a bit alarming
Who'd have ever thought that this could be?
True that he's no Prince Charming
But there's something in him that I simply didn't see
Lumiere:
Well, who'd have thought?
Well, who'd have thought?
Mrs Potts:
Well, bless my soul
Well, bless my soul
Cogsworth:
Well, who'd have known?
Well, who'd have known?
Mrs Potts:
Well, who indeed?
Well, who indeed?
Lumiere:
And who'd have guessed they'd come together on their own?
And who'd have guessed they'd come together on their own?
Mrs Potts:
It's so peculiar.
It's so peculiar.
All three:
We'll wait and see
A few days more
There may be something there that wasn't there before
We'll wait and see
A few days more
There may be something there that wasn't there before
Cogsworth:
You know, perhaps there's something there that wasn't there before
You know, perhaps there's something there that wasn't there before
Mrs Potts:
There may be something there that wasn't there before
There may be something there that wasn't there before
_______________________________________________
... MINE, entitled ''COMPUTIN'':
ME:
"There's sumthin' rough ... in my EYE.
"There's sumthin' rough ... in my EYE.
... Nonetheless, .. I must calculate ... & 'quanti-FIY'!
... AAAHHH, I'm done ... & RIGHT! ... Of this, I'm SURE!
My ''work''s well-rounded. The numbers are quite-PURE!"
My Neural-PsychoTherapist (NPT):
"He didN'T LIE. He was so-RIGHT!
He LOVES-to JOKE, but I dare-NOT 'BITE'!
Digits 'ABOUND'. I caN'T 'fah-LOW'!
Then again, 'to each his-OWN'. ... I will-NOT criticize it SO!"
ME:
(AUDIBLE-sigh) "I'm KAH-RECT ... & NOT-SURPRISED!
Who'da THUNK such math could come-from a 'T.B.I.'?!
'Tis TRUE ... that I'm NO-Al Einstein.
... But, there's something in my BRAIN I could-NOT FEEL!"
NPT:
"WHO'd have THOUGHT?!
... 'Outside of ME'?"
ME:
"But, did you KNOW?!"
NPT:
"Weeell, I've KINDA-been doin' THIS for 'ah-WILE'!
... It IS quite-ODD!"
ME:
"Just 'seh-tihl DOWN'.
DoN'T go-PUKIN'!
... Just sit-BACK, & marvel-AT MY-COMPUTIN'!
NPT:
"Ya know, PERHAPS there's MUCH-MORE to YOUR-COMPUTIN'!
ME:
"There's MUCH-MORE to MY COMPUTIN'!"
My Neural-PsychoTherapist (NPT):
"He didN'T LIE. He was so-RIGHT!
He LOVES-to JOKE, but I dare-NOT 'BITE'!
Digits 'ABOUND'. I caN'T 'fah-LOW'!
Then again, 'to each his-OWN'. ... I will-NOT criticize it SO!"
ME:
(AUDIBLE-sigh) "I'm KAH-RECT ... & NOT-SURPRISED!
Who'da THUNK such math could come-from a 'T.B.I.'?!
'Tis TRUE ... that I'm NO-Al Einstein.
... But, there's something in my BRAIN I could-NOT FEEL!"
NPT:
"WHO'd have THOUGHT?!
... 'Outside of ME'?"
ME:
"But, did you KNOW?!"
NPT:
"Weeell, I've KINDA-been doin' THIS for 'ah-WILE'!
... It IS quite-ODD!"
ME:
"Just 'seh-tihl DOWN'.
DoN'T go-PUKIN'!
... Just sit-BACK, & marvel-AT MY-COMPUTIN'!
NPT:
"Ya know, PERHAPS there's MUCH-MORE to YOUR-COMPUTIN'!
ME:
"There's MUCH-MORE to MY COMPUTIN'!"
_____________________________________________________
-- When I awoke this morning, I just-KNEW I had stuff to-DO. ... E.g. I completed MY "PRE-'breakfast' Morning-ROUTINE" of ABDOMINAL-exercises, (WARNING) I "evacuated my bowels" ... PRE-"ANY 'medicinal-stimulation'", I devised a WHOLE-NEW "Karate-Wrestling-Jujitsu"-technique* & I "channel-SURFED" to find 'Great Expectations'--APPROPRIATELY-named for MY REHAB.-- I'm goin' OUT tonight (at ~7:30 pm) to "CHILL" with my housemate & a few of his friends.
... I RETURNED-home at ~10:45 pm ... after a WONDERFUL-meeting (I couldN'T "EAT".) with 7 friends.
((... I VOLUNTEERED-to (MENTALLY-) CALCULATE the bill. ... 'Twas $21.94 PER-person ... PLUS-tip ... for SEVEN people.
KEY
* = (I've INCLUDED the JAPANESE-terms for the strikes, 'cuz ... THAT's how WE-"Martial Arts"-INSTRUCTORS "communicate" with/to- each-OTHER:)
"Roundhouse-DEFENSE to Mount"
(Attacker & Defender STAND & FACE EACH-OTHER.)
1) Attacker executes a RIGHT-legged 'maewashi geri' ('roundhouse kick') at Defender's LEFT-hip.
2) Defender shuffle-steps BACK & executes a LEFT-armed 'gaedan barai' ('downward sweeping block') to Attacker's RIGHT-ankle.
3) ... After setting RIGHT-foot down, Attacker thrusts OWN RIGHT-'mawashi zuki' ('hook punch') at Defender's LEFT-ribcage.
4) ... Defender BLOCKS strike with OWN LEFT-handed HALF-'chudan uke' ('inside-outside block') to Attacker's RIGHT-wrist.
5) ... Defender GRABS Attacker's RIGHT-bicep region.
6) Attacker executes a LEFT-handed 'tetsu' ('hammer-fist strike') to Defender's RIGHT-clavicle.
7) ... Defender executes a RIGHT-armed 'shuto uke' ('open-handed block') to block strike.
8) ... Defender GRABS Attacker's LEFT-clavicle with OWN RIGHT-hand.
9) Defender thrusts OWN RIGHT-footed 'mae kagi geri' ('front snap kick') at Attacker's groin, "attaches" RIGHT-foot to Attacker's midsection & leans-BACK into a BACK-roll ... WHILE clasped-onto Attacker's UPPER arms.
10) ... AFTER BACK-roll, Defender lands-in "MOUNT-position". ... Defender FINISHES with REPEATED-strikes to Attacker's face.
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